Well... It's more than halfway through the year. And I was... doing so well. I think I last wrote here in April. It's July now... Almost midnight. And now I'm thinking way too much, I can't even talk about it to my best friend. I mean, I want to. I just can't until I have permission... It's almost my birthday... And you have to go away for two months... Hopefully just a month... Does that mean you'll miss my 18th birthday? Will you be able to visit? Will I be able to visit?
I know you have to go so you can get better... But I need you. And I know that sounds selfish but I just have too many thoughts in my head. You said we can still skype and talk but I don't think that's good enough for me. But I want you to go. And if they let you, please come back for my birthday. It won't be the same. It won't ever be the same without you. Even when you're gone the whole day, at least I know you'll be coming home but gone for two months... That's different... Even though I might be staying somewhere else while you're gone, it's still not the same.
But really, I just need to woman up and stop crying because we all know this would be best for you. You need to take care of yourself too instead of others like you always do. And that's not being selfish because it's okay to take a break to take care of your mental health. We know when you need to be there but I don't know when you're leaving us... I just hope you know I love you so much.
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To Whom it May Concern
RandomThis is kinda my own little journal where I can rant or talk to you about it, it's where I can get advice from you guys. Please don't talk about it outside of this. I want to keep it in this journal. If you don't want to read this then that's fine...
