To Whom it May Concern

To Whom it May Concern: about 3/15/19

Yesterday was shit... Honestly... And I can't say it was the worst since there has been worse but I always need to rant at some point, yea? I guess... Anyways, I'm 17 now... and I'm a bit of an introvert... The problem is about that, my mum and stepdad went away for the weekend. When I got home Friday, there was beer pong in the garage, downstairs smelt like weed. I was uncomfortable in my own damn home... My second oldest brother was drunk, made me wish I just stayed the night at my friend's house. I had to take care of a high and drunk girl, even though I seem calm that night, I was fucking nervous the whole time. My brother's friends were there and they're pretty shady, I was never comfortable around them...

Now today... That's just another whole story, which wasn't as bad as yesterday... Just the typical part of me and my oldest brother fighting about something stupid. Then he never apologizes and assumes everything is good after that. But of course, when he asks me to watch his son, I say yea, but how long? Him being an ass "I don't fucking know, we're going to the store." Well shit, now I won't watch him. No need to swear at me for a simple question. I live here, this is supposed to be my comfort zone. I don't want one brother to argue and swear at me, the other be smoking and drinking, LITERALLY having a girl lay in my MOTHER'S bed. I don't care if it's just to watch movies, that's just disrespectful damn it...

I just... I don't feel comfortable anymore... A lot of things are going on right now and I don't want to deal with this now... I'm may be 17, but I already want my mum to be home with me...