pathetic
really all i can use to describe you
take a look at yourself
how can you put this on melook at who you kiss
look at the sickening smile he has
the same smile he used
to fucking tear me aparti still can't drink apple juice
it makes me want to vomit
i can't drink a fucking juice
because of himyet i'm the bad guy
he's the good guy
i never got a fucking apology from him
not even a half assed onei don't hate you
god i should
i don't because i know you're pathetic
i know you can't help ityou crawl like a dog
for any sip of love
whether that be poisonous or not
you're fucking patheticand i say that in the kindest way
just remember who left first
remember who took you in after every break up
remember who tried to be a good brother
i'm not perfect and i never tried to bewhat did you expect me to do
ask yourself honestly
did you expect me to just say okay
did you expect me to accept itif so, you're dumber than i thought
would you have accepted it
would you have left someone you cared for
get with someone who made you dieit's like you spit on my trauma
you continue to do so
you look at this knowing it'll say bad things
maybe you're addictedagain
you're fucking pathetic
letting my words draw you in
which i knew they wouldi knew you'd be curious
i knew you'd read this
and i'm glad you did
because you're just digging your hole deepergo ahead and blame me
but in the end
you'll still be fucking patheticactually i'm not done
you act like i came for your fucking throat
if i wanted to, i could've
but i fucking didn'tstop trying to victimize yourself
i've seen how fucked up you are
and i know you rely on love to fill you
but it fucking won'tget that into your head
no matter how many you kiss
how many you love
you'll still be a pathetic piece of shiti tried to be a friend
i tried to be a brother
but you FUCKING CHOSE HIMwhy don't you get that
it's not about me wanting to hurt you
i never wanted that
i would've killed for you
i would kill myself before i hurt youit's about you choosing him
choosing an abuser
choosing a manipulator
choosing someone who willingly hurt mei guess my love wasn't returned
i guess i didn't mean shit to you
i guess i was wrong
you weren't family were youso in the end
was it me who strived to break you
despite my efforts to help
like forcing my parents to use your correct name?or was it you
using me for the benefits of what the fuck ever
you seeing me as disposable
you choosing othersi don't hate you
despite what you may be told by him
i would still break a bitch if they misgendered you
but i don't want any thanks or anything from you for thati want you to feel guilty
but you won't
you never did
i hope he fucks you up just as muchi'd hate to see it
but maybe that's how you learn
maybe that's what'll get through to you
but i won't be there to fucking pick you upand if he doesn't
congrats you win
have a sticker
you still betrayed meand you're still pathetic.