i'm so immature
i know i am and i wish i could fix it
i feel like i'm stuck in freshman year of high school
i have stupid fucking crushes and feel like i need to be involved in everything
and i don't know when to shut up
i want so badly for other people to understand that i can't always stop myself
but it's still my responsibility to not be like this
it makes me so annoying, so undesirable, so unbearable
but i feel like i'm broken
i feel so dumb
so small
so gullible
so easy
so immature
i miss being "mature for my age"
that's what i got told
part of me wants to say that's why i'm like this now
i was called mature so i never felt the need to actually mature
or i was mature that now i have the freedom, my brains trying to catch up on all the stupidity i missed on
i just hate myself right now
i feel so dumb
