if i was your cage
then my doors were horribly locked
because every time someone said they loved you
you'd hope out and fly awaysure it wasn't my place to say
that your relationships would fail
even if they did in the future
but hell i was just being honesteven if i was being a dick
even if you actually hated me
even if i hurt you
even if i was a toxic personwhy would you date someone like him
someone you know cheated
you know abused
you know manipulatedthere's only so much i could've lied about
you saw the voicemails
you saw my fear
you saw me cry over iti'm not a good actor
and i hate lying
but you won't believe that
i can't make you do thati didn't mean to hurt you
i truly didn't plan it
if i did, then i'll apologize for that
but i still think you're a bitchi mean how could you date my abuser
even if i was an asshole
you straight up imply my trauma doesn't matter
you honestly didn't care huhi don't know why i keep writing
i know you'll see this and whine like a baby
i'm not even trying to convince you of anything
i don't want you in my life againeven if you see his true colors
even if you stay blind
even if he fucks you over
i won't forgive youyou'll be on your own
because those friends will disappear too
you know i went through it with him
but you can choose what you believei type this hoping it'll relieve my anger
because god i want to hate you
you deserve it
but i just can'ti type this to learn to hate you
to train myself that yes you deserve it
you're nearly just as bad as him
still fucking hate apple juiceyou were never trapped
you were never chained down
you were always free
and you left many times