Monster | J.JK✔️

28: Lies

You say you love me yet you hurt me
You say you can't live without me yet your killing me...

I lay curled up in a ball wrapped in the bedsheets crying for hours on end that I think my voice is slipping away. It hurts...The pain in my lower body is absolutely excruciating. All I can do is wail, forcing myself to endure all the pain. Unfortunately Jungkook did not leave the house today and I almost got a heart attack seeing him so close to me first thing in the morning. But after leaving pain killers behind, he left the room.
The pain so immense I cannot even move.
The exact same as yesterday...
And what will be tonight...
And tomorrow...
And the day after...

I feel as if I'm being dragged to the bottom of the ocean where nothing but darkness is seen. No escape, no light, just suffocating until I drown. Jungkook is suffocating me...destroying me...tearing me apart...He didn't even give me recovery time from the night before....But just heartlessly destroyed me again. Doesn't he know my body is physically unable to take this! It's torture...he could kill me if he goes this rough without letting me recover...

I stay hurled up in bed without moving a muscle. It hurts too much to even try. Unfortunately Jungkook soon enters the room. My eyes automatically close not wanting to see the man who's ruining me but claims he loves me. I stay where I am, laying soullessly on the bed. Please don't come near me. Please don't come near. Please don't talk to me. Go away.

And thankfully he does. I can't see what Jungkook's doing since he walks behind me on the other side of the room. He leaves me alone but lingers around the room. I'd rather he leave so I can attempt recovering in peace but as long as he's not coming near me it's fine.

We stay like this for who knows how long. Jungkook stays silent doing god knows what behind me. And I'm wishing I had the energy to grab more pain killers because my abdomen is killing me. It hurts to so bad that I'm tired of crying. It's drained all my energy. "My life expectancy is going down day by day" I mutter just audible enough for him hear.

"What?" Jungkook raises a brow at my remark.

"Kook...would you like it if I died?" I say breathlessly, still looking down at my hands with no will stay conscious. I wish I was gone already. Being died is probably less painful then staying alive...

"What kind of a stupid question is that?" Jungkook frowns carrying on with whatever he's fumbling with behind me.

"A serious one" I dully reply back. 

Jungkook huffs turning around to glare at my back. "I thought you already knew your the only reason I'm alive now" Jungkook emotionlessly claims.

"But I'll die soon if my body doesn't get recovery time to heal..." I sigh as my eyelids close slowly drowning in the pain. My body not able to fight off the agony and gives up only to let everything consume me. "I'll die if you keep doing this."

"I told you I won't let you die" Jungkook grunts and marches to the door. "But-" I mumble but he cut me off, slamming the door shut.
He left...

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Most of the day went past and by then I managed to sit up against the headboard. The agony in my body was abruptly distracted by the thought of Jiyun and Taehyung. What if they've reported me missing? They must be worried sick about me. I just left so unexpectedly. What if they think I died?!

Just then something was thrown beside me, jolting me up from my thoughts. I snap my head to the side with alert eyes but only to see Jungkook casually standing next to me. I gulp thinking what he's going to do or say but honestly he's looking kinda calm. My eyes then avert to what was thrown next to me.