Monster | J.JK✔️

2: Scared

I know I'm not good, perfect, worthy enough
I didn't even ask to be born

Minji POV

I spent the rest of the day feeling upset. I shouldn't have said that to Jungkook. It did sound wrong. I know he's sensitive so I shouldn't have said what I did. When I went to lunch I found my jacket hanging on the back of a chair where we usually sit. I don't know why but that made me feel worse. Knowing he was upset at me and didn't want to keep the jacket for the day and left it hanging there for me. When the rest of my friends came, of course they all noticed I wasn't as engaged as I usually am. But they knew better than to ask why since they could tell I didn't want to talk about why I was off.

Once school had slowly gone past, I walk my way home with my head slightly down. I remember when I first met Jungkook. It was when we were 12 and I was trying to get away from a bunch of bullies, I found a boy sitting alone on a bench at the end of the school. He was crying uncontrollably and hard. But his cries were sort of drowning as if he had already spent months crying non stop. He was alone. Skinny. Exhausted. Not dressed well. Scratches on him. He looked like everything and everyone had given up on him.

From that moment I knew I had to help that boy. So I had gone up to him and ended up being his first proper friend. Until this year we started dating. Jungkook in a way is dependant on me. He's not strong yet. He's still weak and needs my support. I'm the first and only person to have opened myself up to him. And I'm the only one who he let into his life. I think that's why he can be very clingy. He doesn't trust anyone else. He still has trust issues. And sometimes anger issues. Which is probably why he got angry at me like that. He has had many sudden anger outbreaks like that before. But not very large ones though which is good. I can just hope they don't get bigger.

Thinking about this, I arrive home. I take a deep breath standing in front of my house. I have an average family. Well without a mother. She passed away giving birth to me. So it's just my dad and I but we aren't very close, since he's always busy with work. Going out early and coming late. I'm ok though. I've lived through this my whole life. I know my dad cares for me a lot. Work just takes a lot of his time. My dad has been through a lot trying to raise me. He was really depressed when my mum passed away. I never talk about my problems with my dad. I don't want to trouble him with my problems. He doesn't need to be worried about me. I need to stay happy and healthy so he can.

I spend the rest of the day in my room alone. I wish I could call Jungkook because tomorrow seems so far but of course Jungkook doesn't have a phone. I purse my lips and lay on my bed. I'll just have to wait.

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The next day I'm eager to see Jungkook...And it seems like he was too. I see him running towards me at our lockers before school starts. Again in the same outfit as yesterday but fortunately it was much cooler today. Jungkook stops abruptly in front of me.

"Jungkookie-"

"I'm sorry" Jungkook finishes my sentence but he was trying to say it before me. I close my mouth not expecting him to say it first.

"I'm sorry for getting angry at you Minji" Jungkook says looking guilty of his actions yesterday. "I know you didn't mean to say you thought something was wrong with me but I didn't even let you explain and kept accusing you. I...I don't know why I got so angry suddenly like that....I shouldn't have done that" Jungkook says with his eyes on the floor. "I'm sorry" He apologises.

I break into a soft smile feeling much better. "It's ok, Jungkook" I say and touch his arm gently so he looks back at me. "I'm sorry too, for phrasing my words in a way it sounded a bit rude" I tell him my apology.