Monster | J.JK✔️

37: Questions

Holding onto things which hurt you the most and you can't let go is the worst pain ever

I sit reluctantly in the beige fabric chair of his office. The space all neat and tidy filled with maroon and black books stacked on shelf upon shelf. With my lawyer right across me listening attentively to every word, I have to say.

"That's what he told me after I asked what he'd do if I left him...I felt so shocked at the moment...I didn't expect such a violent answer" I speak neutrally looking down at my fiddling fingers. I don't want to be here. I don't want to have to do this. But Taehyung and Jiyun had already arranged absolutely everything for me. They told me I have no choice but to confess.

"Well, I know you did leave him despite Jungkook's disgusting threat. Taehyung filled me on as much as he could. You were staying at his place for almost a month," the man says reading off his messy handwritten notes through his glasses. "One night Taehyung was out and when returned you were no longer there. And all was left was a messy note saying you'd run back with Jungkook." Glancing up from his notes we make eye contact once more as he analysing all the information. "I'm assuming this isn't the case."
"Mr Kim-" I start to say wanting to ask something off topic to our conversation. "Please" he cuts me off with a gentle smile. "Call me Jae."

I return a slight smile and nod. "Jae" I continue. "What I tell you will determine Jungkook sentence right?" I say pursing my lips in nervousness. I don't want Jungkook to stay in prison for long. I've already reluctantly had to tell Jae about all my beatings at home. That in itself will cost him a lot. But I don't want to say anything that happened during my time at the isolated house. That will get Jungkook into a whole new level of trouble possibly even for his whole life. Jail will not help Jungkook whatsoever...It's more likely to kill him.

"Well...yes," Jae says closing his notebook to then cross his hands over the desk. "I spoke with the people who are interrogating Jungkook and they said he will not say anything. However...he will confirm that he did whatever you tell me." I stare blankly at him unable to display any emotion but grief as I think about what I've gotten my lover into. Jungkook won't confess...of course because he wouldn't just throw himself in jail like that. But he'll admit he did whatever I say he did...He still has a bit of human and guilt inside him. That's the way giving in. Rather than fighting back. I feel a pit in my stomach. This was my chance to lie and save him but I've already spilled so much...

"Minji, I know you want to save your lover from a long time in prison" Jae continues trying to be sympathetic and friendly towards me. Yet, of course, his job is to interrogate what happened. "But right now, I need to know whether Jungkook did do what he threatened after he captured you or not?" I gulp as the hair on the back of my neck prick up. The nervousness and confusion of what I should say eats at me. I can land Jungkook in prison for way too long if I say what he really did to me for months on end. Jae leans forward on the table giving me one stern stare, dropping his voice low and firm. "Was this an empty threat or...did Jungkook actually do that?"

My hands shake on my lap as I try to control myself. I gulp. This shouldn't be so hard to answer yet it is. Breaking the eye contact with him I look down at my shaking fingers taking one last heave of air. "It was an empty threat...He didn't do it" I mumble making up my decision.

I can feel Jae's stare on me filled with doubt at my hesitant answer. Yet he has to believe it and sits back. "Ok...Well, Jungkook was clearly hostile and filled with rage when you ran from him for another man. Jungkook must have been much more aggressive right?" Jae continues with his questions trying to find out the horrors of what happened behind those locked doors far away from everyone. But I won't give in. I can't.