Monster | J.JK✔️

12: Blinded

The voices in my head are driving me crazy

Pain. That's all I feel. Agony. Engulfed in it. Tenderness. All over my skin.
I enter my conscious state from the burning in my sore and raw skin. Whimpering is the first thing I do even before opening my eyes as I can feel all the pain from yesterday flood back in. He beat me with a belt. Way too much. More than I can physically handle. My skin started to bleed from the harsh slaps on my delicate skin. But he kept going. Until I couldn't cope anymore and fell unconscious. The horrifying memories of yesterday's events wash back in my mind making my eyes shoot open in panic.

The light of morning flashes in my eyes and I squint them wondering why the curtains aren't drawn. That's when I realise the surface under me is soft yet not my bed. Looking around I find myself on the sofa in the lounge room with sunlight shining through the windows. Groaning, I move my arm to cover my face and my body to roll over. But that instantly turns into a terrible idea as pain erupts from my muscles. "Ahh" I quietly yell feeling sore everywhere. I can't move properly.

That's when I feel something unusually stiff on my arms. A bandage. Wrapped tightly on both arms below my elbow. I can guess why Jungkook put that there. I remember watching blood leak out of my skin and stain Jungkook's belt as he lifted it up only for it to come smacking back down and collecting more blood. He beats me then nurses me...

I gather the strength to move my muscles again. They ache but I know I'll have to move sooner or later, so I attempt to sit up. I want to shout while doing so but I force my mouth shut and unstably sit up. I see the rest of my arms where the bandage isn't there is 90% red. Seriously red. And my legs too. I was wearing a skirt up to my knees. He didn't just hit every part of my skin. He hit every part multiple times. Until it all turned red.

Jungkook better not ask for forgiveness. Because I don't think I can this time.

I shut my eyes in pain. I want to cry again. I can't believe he did such a hideous thing. I want to sob. I want to weep so loudly that heaven might hear I'm in trouble and help me. But I don't have any tears left in me. I cried enough yesterday. So I just rest my head back and leave my eyes closed.

Then I remember Taehyung. And my eyes are back open. I didn't see him. What if he was waiting for me and I never came...I don't even have my phone to tell him I'm sorry. I should stop contacting him. But...I feel so bad! He had an accident, ends in hospital and that's when I start ignoring him?! That's not fair. I should be asking him how he is but now I suddenly can't talk to him. Sighing, I push that thought away and focus on relaxing my body in the sofa to try recover quickly.

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Jungkook POV

Looking in the bathroom mirror with both hands holding the edge of the sink, I think about what I did yesterday. I beat her til she fell unconscious....I did something unthinkable. Something monstrous. To my own girlfriend...

How...How could I do something like that...

I take a deep inhale staring into my reflection. I know Minji must be in a whole lot of pain right now. At least I wrapped her arms up which were bleeding before. But then again it wouldn't be bleeding if I hadn't hit her mercilessly. All of a sudden my head starts replaying her screams.
'No Jungkook!!'
I hear her fearful shouts in my head. But this time I actually feel upset hearing it, the way I should have yesterday.
'Please don't! I'm sorry, I won't speak back again!'
Ahh, I don't want to hear this! Her cries are too heartbreaking to listen to! I'm going to break down just thinking about it. Why do I suddenly find her screaming and begs horrifying to listen to, when yesterday I ignored them all?
'Jungkook stop!!'
Stop! I shake my head vigorously, shutting my eyes. I don't want to hear her voice like this! It's too upsetting to hear. Yet somehow I managed to still hurt her...