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Izuku was drowning, he couldn't breathe, he couldn't see, he couldn't feel. He said surrounded by a cold and empty void. Oddly enough he felt at peace, he finally felt safe. For the first time in a long time, he didn't hear voices constantly telling him he was worthless. He wasn't being attacked by Bakugo or ignored by his friends. His mom wasn't looking at him with disgust and hatred. His hero wasn't telling him that his best wasn't good enough.

It was just him and no one else could hurt him again. Izuku never wanted to wake up, he wanted to stay, but he knew he couldn't. There was a warm presence slowly pushing him to the surface. Telling him that he had to go back, that people were waiting on him. It strongly doubted that was true, but he was tired. He was tired of fighting, tired of trying to prove himself, tired of being hurt and used. So he just laid there letting himself be pushed back to the life he wanted to desperately escape.

Izuku slowly opened his eyes shutting them again due to the bright lights. He tried again blinking a few times waiting for his eyes to adjust. Once his vision cleared he looked around noticing the large white curtain. He recognized Recovery Girls' sickening white infirmary. God how he hated the color white. Images of his blood staining his white sheets and walls flashed through his mind. Izuku tightly shut his eyes trying to will away the memories.

"Midoriya? What's wrong?"

Izuku quickly opened his eyes in surprise looking around slightly scared. He finally noticed Tokoyami asleep in a chair and Kaminari in a bed beside his. Dark shadow was beside him looking worried. Izuku blinks several times confused before opening his mouth to speak. He winced in pain touching his throat. Dark Shadow hands him a cup of water and he weakly takes it from him. He takes a few sips of the water before placing it down.

Why were Tokoyami and Kaminari in here? Wait how did I get here? Did they see m-

"Are you doing ok?"

"Not.....really" Izuku managed to say quietly.

Dark Shadow looked at him in surprise, "you can hear me!"

Izuku blinked and looked at him confused, "Yes...can't everyone?"

"No"

Izuku just looked at him even more confused. He's always been able to understand Dark Shadow. He never said anything or commented since he was never talking to him. Then again he's never seen anyone talk to him besides Tokoyami. If no one else could hear him then how can he?

Izuku oddly felt safe with the birdlike entity. He made Izuku feel like he was in that void again. It was dark, quiet, and warm but also cool, he was alone so it meant there was no one to hurt him. Most people would be scared but Izuku loved that feeling.

"Are you ok? You look sick." Dark Shadow said worriedly again.

"I hate....white," Izuku said quietly.

The door opened and Chiyo walked in with Nezu. She pulls the curtain back to see Dark Shadow floating by Izuku. She looks surprised at first but smiles nonetheless.

"Izuku I didn't think you'd be awake so soon," She said Cheerily.

Izuku simply gave her a blank stare nodding in acknowledgment. Suddenly he didn't feel like talking to anyone so he remained quiet. Dark shadow moved back over to Tokoyami as he and Kaminari woke up. Izuku internally frowned as Dark Shadow's comforting presence left his side. Suddenly all his anxiety and fear returned to him. If he was here then that meant they knew.

They all knew how weak and pathetic he was. They probably think he tried to kill himself and that thought alone made his stomach churn. Chiyo moved over to Izuku checking his vitals. Once she deemed him ok enough she pulled the blanket up some more. Izuku flinched though it was barely. Nezu noticed his slight discomfort and hopped up on the bed.

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