Luke x Reader (JATP) - barely editing anymore

chapter 38

tw: mention of ed, mention of self harm, mention of rape, and mention of abuse

"are you ready?" the haunting voice that you grew to hate, asked you.

"does it matter" you snapped back.

"not at all" he said with a light smirk which you didn't dare to turn and look at.

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"hey, where were you?" alex questioned as you walked back into the garage.

"i was just with carrie talking about the dance" you quickly lied.

"speaking of the dance we still have to practice" luke said annoyed and all up in his music world.

"oh right um let me grab my book"

you went up and saw that you're book was open to a diary entry where you were talking about you're night out with ethan, lucas, and ryan.

"which one of you assholes read my diary?!" you yelled furious, that was the one book that you wrote everything in. from you're school girl crushes to when you had you're period but most the pages were filled with personal stories that you went through before and while you knew the boys.

"what do you mean?" alex asked confused looking to reggie for advice. reggie gave the same confused look and shrugged slightly while looking back up at you, leading you to realise that it was none other than the lead guitarist of the band, luke.

"god i am never talking to you again" you yelled at luke letting you're rage take control of you.

"look i'm sorry, it was there and it was open okay, what did you expect me to do?"

you let out a scoff at his stupidity.

"oh i don't know luke... maybe not read it?!"

"how do you expect me not to read it when you don't tell us shit y/n!"

you just let out another scoff and started to head outside being done with luke's shit.

"when you don't tell us that you're dad fucking hits you!"

you stop in you're tracks.

alex and reggie look over to luke and see he's telling the truth only to look over at you sympathetically.

"shut up" you said quietly.

"oh or is it that you fucking cut yourself!" he kept going not caring how embarrassed you would be because of him, it was his way of showing he cared in one of the stupidest ways ever. he was also mad that you had made out with guys other than him and not told him all the shit that had happened throughout you're life without telling him. now everything inside him is exploding into anger that's being directed towards you.

"shut up!" you said louder now.

"or maybe the fact you haven't eaten anything in weeks and whenever you do, it never really stays down that long does it?"

"shut up" you were now yelling at him.

"or wait maybe it's the fact you got fucking raped y/n!"

that was it. every little ounce of trust that you had in luke. every little feeling that you felt for the messy brunette haired boy was now gone.

you were no longer screaming, you tried so hard to forget that night, and he just brought it up like that.

when you looked at him now it was no longer with you're warm sensitive caring eyes. luke no longer existed to you.

there was silence now, as if the world stopped for a second, and time slowed down. you could hear a pin drop it was so quiet. no one daring to speak before the other.

that was when you let out a scoff that turned into a little laugh.

"luke patterson i am never talking to you again" you said it with a completely straight face saying each word slowly and carefully.

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uh yea don't kill me pls but thanks for 50k that's like kinda rly crazy and again sry for always taking a while to respond i've been so so busy and j not rly up to it which is why my writings been kinda crappy lately but i'm trying to get better again i promise!