Maine POV
This is the story how I become happy with "them"
Being born in this troublesome world is not very pleasant,you always have to indure the pain given to you by your own parents emotionally, physically, and mentally.
Trying your best is futile.
They tend to only give shits when you do something wrong or unpleasant.
Treat you like stress ball literally.
Every curses, every whip, every punch, every slap...
Ahhhhhh it hurts! it really hurt!!
My body hurts!!!!
Help!!!!!
Ouch!
Blood everywhere.....
Until I sleep.
Seeing them fighting over and over again.
I just really hate it.
But you know it's okay because now
I'm happy!!!!!
I can't feel anything now!!!
It's very pleasant.!!!!!
I don't have to pretend I'm okay again.
I don't need to laugh or smile as if it is nothing
I don't have to pretend I'm okay because now....
I really can't feel anything.
Time passed by.......
Like injuries starting to fade
But still reminding you not to forget
Scars
Scars
And
Scars
So many of them.....
It's already years since I become happy
I don't feel anything
But I see something
Ahhhh ..... I hate it!!
I unduldge myself in bad things so that my eyes will become numb too
But you know I found a Hobby
A thing that is pleasant
I read and read and read their stories
They die in the book
I save them
I gave them life in my head
Now they are happy living there
With me
Where everything is perfect happy and I can protect them
I don't want them to experience what happened to me
So I decided to
Read and read
and save
Now my eyes are getting weak
I can't see anymore clearly
But I'm happy because I save many
Then my parents come again
So unpleasant...
Even I can't see clearly
I can still outline them
Ahhh......
The hand that slap me
That big hand that punch me
That face that look at me before with anger
That cane that hit me several times
But why?
Why?
Why are you crying?
Why?
I don't understand
Why?
Are you still disappointed with me?
Are you still regretting having me?
So unpleasant
I hate it so....
I dismissed them........
Again I focused in indulging reading
I still read and read and read
Until.....
You guys come again.....
Crying........
Crying. .....
And Crying .......
Asking for forgiveness....
Like a bomb I explode to them
I clearly ask
"Was I not enough"
"Am I really useless?"
"What did I do To you to treat me like this?"
But deep inside me I know I'm happy
I can't see them now
Everything is black
Ahhhh.....
I knew it darkness will never leave me alone....
Next Day you guys came again...
Crying....
Crying...
Saying.......
We will now take care of you properly
We will now love you
We will care now
So unpleasant...
But what they didn't know tonight
Tonight I will be able to rest...
I can dream for a very long time...
Where I can be happy
Where I can be with someone I know loves me
Where it is pleasant
A very peaceful place with "them" the one I save in Books.
All I have to do is drink every tablet
One...
Two...
Three...
Four....
Ahhhhhh....
I need more.
Te-
Huh why I can't move?
Ahhhh....
Ahhhhhhh....
I'm tired.
I can see light again
I see,
You guys are there
Smiling at me
Waving....
Lending your hand so that I can be with you
Hehehehe.....
Now I can finally be happy
I can now be with "them"
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