a louis to go, please! » stylinson au

24: change

Harry yanked the door open and scanned the small room, his eyes landing on his best friend who quickly covered his bare chest with a shirt. He didn't seemed to calm down even though it was Harry standing there. The Harry he was taking baths with when they were kids, the Harry who's seen him in just a towel a week back. It was Harry.

"Ni" Harry said quietly, feeling Louislet go off of his hand. He turned around to him, but the blue eyed boy only shook his head. "Talk this out, yeah? I'm waiting outside" He said and closed the door behind him.

Niall turned away from Harry and put on his shirt, pulling down his jeans and putting on his gym shorts. He turned around again and went to push past Harry to just get away from him, but he stopped him by pulling him into a tight hug.

Harry buried his face in Niall's neck and pulled his impossibly closer. Niall just stood there, felt his best friend's hot breath on his neck and wished to sink into the ground.

"Ni, I'm so sorry" Harry whispered, not daring to let him go unless he would talk to him. He wanted to fix this.

"Great" Niall just said and tried to push Harry off, but he only tightened his grip around the smaller boy.

He sighed and closed his eyes, "Let me explain, please?"

Niall huffed and abruptly pushed him off. "What's there to explain, Harry?" He asked harshly and crossed his arms over his chest, obviously hurt by the shit Harry's done.

Harry looked down at him with sad green eyes, the guilt eating him up inside. "Please?" He tried again, his lips pressed to a thin line.

Niall pursed his lips and shook his head slowly. "You know, when trust is broken .. sorry means nothing" He said and shrugged, but sat down nonetheless, "But okay, explain yourself."

The green eyes seemed to sparkle now as he quickly sat down next to him. He couldn't fuck this up. No lies, just the truth.

Problem is, that the truth is that Harry forgot about Niall for a week. Now try to say this to his face.

He swallowed thickly and started fidgeting with his fingers, his eyes flickering across Niall's face nervously as he tried to find any emotions. All that Harry could find was hurt, disappointment, but so so so much hurt.

"I fucked up, I know" Harry started and captured his bottom lip between his teeth before releasing and it turning to its natural red colour, "And I know what I did was very fucked up. And-and I know that sorry won't fix this and that I'm an asshole and that you probably want to slap me across the face and that you're mad and--"

"Harry, I'm just disappointed, y'know?" Niall interrupted sadly, a broken smile tugging at his lips, "We spent our whole life with each other and you were able to .. forget me within a week for someone you have a crush on."

Harry nodded, understanding him. "I just .. I wanted to be close to him and make sure he's okay. It was so important to me that I take care of him.." He trailed off, missing the hurt that flashed across Niall's face.

His heart was aching as Harry talked himself further into deep shit. He kept hurting his best friend more and more without even realising it.

"Shut up, Harry!" Niall yelled, his eyes glimmering with tears, "Just shut your fucking mouth! I don't need you telling me that Louis means more to you, yeah?! I don't want to hear it!"

Harry immediately shut his mouth and backed away a couple of inches. He nodded, understanding him again. He fucked up, that's all.

Harry did regret most of it, he felt guilty for leaving Niall like that but he also knew that he wasn't able to turn back time. And so he either had to try and deal with it or give up. Or just try and fix it.

Niall looked at him through thick eyelashes, they were wet from the tears that were now rolling down his cheeks. "Ni, I'm so sorry" Harry whispered and looked down in shame.

He sighed quietly and pulled Harry into a hug despite his head's protest. He was going after his heart, and it was telling him to just get his Harry back.

Speaking of Harry, he had his eyes widened in schock as he hesitantly put his arms around him as well. "Don't do that ever again, you fucking cunt" Niall mumbled, sobbing quietly while Harry was burying his face in his neck again.

He eagerly nodded, "I promise."

Niall didn't know what came over him to just let it slip like that. But he wasn't going to ruin a friendship of seventeen years just because there is a beautiful boy called Louis Tomlinson who Harry was crushing on. So fuck it, right?

"We good?" Harry asked quietly after a while when Niall's sobs quieted down. Niall nodded, slowly losing his grip around his best friend.

And though Niall was still disappointed and kind of hurt, he was ready to move on. Cause, hey, Harry was the only friend he's got, even though Cas and Dean have been there for him the past couple of days.

"You wanna hang out tomorrow?" Niall asked, ignoring that the door opened and more boys strolled into the room that would soon be stuffy enough for them to nearly suffocate.

A new wave of guilt washed over him as he shook his head and bit down on his lip. "I'm at Lou's .. Watching his sisters with him" Harry explained truthfully.

Niall small smile fell, a frown now present on his face. "Oh" He simply said, which made Harry feel even more awful.

"We can hang out today?" He suggested instead, watching Niall with hopeful eyes as the boys around him were starting to get loud. They were some noisy annoying bastards.

"Mhm" Niall hummed and got up from where he sat down, mentioning towards the door, "I'm gonna wait outside. You better change."

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When Harry stepped outside in a matter of just a few minutes, he looked around, surprised to not find Louis anywhere.

There was an awkward tension between the two boys now, their once so natural and casual friendship seemingly fell apart and it was hurting both of them.

The weird silence was weighing down on their shoulders and they desperately wanted to put this stupid luggage down and just get over it, but it seemed so hard when it was supposed to be so easy.

That's when Harry saw Louis and Eleanor talking behind the bleachers. He couldn't quite figure out what was going on, but El had her arms crossed over her chest, Louis's back was facing him and therefore he had no idea what facial expression he had right now. Not that he would've seen anyhting anyway, they were too far away.

Louis pulled her close by her waist and kissed her which made Harry's heart shatter a bit. Quite a lot.

He didn't even know why it hurt so much, it just did. Was it selfish to want Louis? That he wished himself at Eleanor's place? That we wanted to kiss him, hold his hand and be with him instead of Eleanor? Was it selfish to want all of this when the two seemed so happy together?

For Harry, it was. Which was the reason why he felt guilty and bad for crushing over this ridiculous good looking boy who's been driving him crazy for so long now.

The couple slowly came back hand in hand, smiles on both of their faces.

"Man, that kinda hurts" Harry mumbled and looked down at the ground. Niall had to stop himself from saying something along the lines of "you don't say".

He kept silent instead and tried to ignore the obvious change between them. He hated it.

I feel bad for doing this to Narry's friendship. I'll fix it soon. Pinky promise.
Quick question: do you want ziall, niam or ziam? I'd be up to write any of these. I wouldn't mind adding a character who Niall gets with either. Share you thoughts with me? :)
Eh, anyway, I don't like this chapter lol.

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