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27: i love you, i love you, i love-

This chapter is focused on Dean & Cas. Also I'm very sorry for the T&S references that are about to come. Special apologies go to mcr_lin please be prepared.
Also TW for abuse, but I'll give you another warning when the part is about to come.
Enjoy x

Led Zeppelin was blaring through the car, Dean was tapping on the steering wheel to the beat and his eyes flickered from the road, to his boyfriend and to the two idiots in the back.

Sam and Gabe were quietly talking, their hands were intertwined and rested in Gabe's lap. The two had a constant smile on their faces and Dean knew, if it ever were to disappear from his brother's face, he'll kill Gabriel with his own bare hands.

Meanwhile Castiel was just looking out of the window and watched the world become a blur. He was scared.

Dean's dad, John, was going to visit them for the first time in a while after spending years in jail. He was scared because John was a cruel and bad man, a human that wanted his children to be machines.

He was scared for Dean and Sam, for John to join in their lives again and put Dean back into the state where he once was.

Dean was open. He was holding Castiel's hand without being ashamed of who he is. It took him a lot time to accept himself after all these disgusting words that his own father has yelled at him for years.

Yeah, Cas was scared.

What if I told you that Dean was just as scared? Dean has always been scared. There wasn't a minute in his life which he spent without pondering about what if.

He was scared because of Cas. He loved him more than anything, no doubt. But he was so, so scared. Because everyone he's ever loved and cared about, they all left.

At first, Dean hated that he fell for this beautiful blue eyed boy. He hated that he loved him. He didn't wanted to allow himself to fall, because he was so incredibly afraid.

He couldn't lose him. Nor could Dean afford losing Sam or Bobby. These people were his family, they actually cared for him and made him feel wanted and needed.

Then obviously, he was scared of John. He wasn't looking forward to seeing his dad again. Dean didn't wanted him to visit them and act like nothing ever happened. All John ever did was saying that he was "too drunk to think straight", when this man didn't needed alcohol to be less of a father. It didn't mattered which state he was in, Dean always did something that was wrong and that meant punishment for him.

Sam didn't liked that John was coming over either. He noticed how much of an abuser John and how much of a real brother Dean actually was. He always protected Sam, always put his little brother's well being before his own because god damnit if John only dared to touch Sammy, he would be a dead man.

Gabe and Cas were here today for moral support, they promised to never leave the other's side to prevent any bad things to happen.

John would arrive later in the day so that Dean and Castiel still had some time left for their little milkshake date.

Dean pulled into the small driveway, parking the car and shut off the engine, Robert Plant's voice not blaring through the car anymore. He turned around to the two teenagers and gave Sam a reassuring smile.

"We got this, okay? It'll be just a few hours and then he'll be gone to sleep at a motel" Dean said and nodded, seemingly trying to calm himself down as well, "It'll be just fine."

The cab of the impala fell silent again. A silence that was weighing down on everyone's shoulder and yet no one dared to move just an inch or breathe too loud.