╔════◈◉◈════╗ Six ╚════◈◉◈════╝ Tw: mentions of suicide, anxiety, paranoia
Messages went on for the night,
"kys" "clout chaser" "#Irisisoverparty"
I knew I couldn't take it; I knew I wouldn't sleep tonight, or possibly the next. Yet still I scrolled through the endless hate. I didn't do anything wrong. Or did i? I must have done something.
I deserved this.
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TRENDING #Irisisoverparty Mcyt fans are calling out @eyeris for being involved in the fandom the past few months, apparently with suspicious behaviors? Idk man im super confused, I need to get paid more-
Quackity Yo I know im a bad "friend" but it doesn't give you the right to ghost me be like that then 🙄 oh wait I just checked twitter You're not a clout chaser Just letting you know... Delivered 10:22
Tall guy that won't stop following me Iris Listen You aren't a clout chaser I've known you since the 3rd grade Please stay safe I love you. Delivered 10:49
Ollliieeeeee Irissss Pleaseee respondddd Your friends are freaking outtt Im your friend! Im not good with the sad stuff sorry :( F*ckin stans ruin everything Delivered 11:04
Quackity As your friend im checking in Cookie? 🍪 this situation is not cool im looking out for you :) delivered 11:31
tall guy that won't stop following me please stay safe. Im tweeting something. Delivered 11:47
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Ranboo | @ranboosaysstuff This is so stupid. None of you have the right to "cancel" my best friend for being herself. She didn't pay us, she didn't bribe us, she didn't do anything wrong. You guys should probably pick up on what I say every. single. Stream. "don't pay for your friends" what makes you guys think I would let that happen? Iris has been my best friend from the 3rd grade. I know a lot of the fandom suffers with mental health issues, y'know who else suffers from some of the same thing? My FRIEND Iris. Im very disappointed. Anybody who even thought for a second that Iris a fake, can see their way out. Because of this, I'm going to be taking a couple days off of streaming to hang out with my friend.
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↳ Cadarino | @authour He really pulled a "im not mad just disappointed" #weloveyouiris
↳ Ollieinnit4ever | @ollieinnit Not yall making the entire group take a break bc someone started a rumor- sometimes im ashamed to be in this community. #weloveyouiris
↳ @homophobeorsomethingidk This doesn't change anything #Irisisoverparty
↳ Sadist | @SAD_istfied pulling out my deathnote real quick-
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quackity ranboo tweeted something You might have seen But most of the group is taking a break Delivered 12:38
ollliieeeeee u dead? Not the time ollie sorry Okay I probably shouldn't be having a conversation with myself in our texts If it makes you feel better, if I had some on me, I would totally smoke some pot with you Delivered 12:58
Tall guy that won't stop following me Its too late for me to come over but please at least read these. Iris Stay safe. I'll check in later Delivered 1:12
7 missed calls from tall guy who won't stop following me
3 missed calls from ollliieeeeee
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Over 3 hours of agony passed, after throwing my phone on the couch in disgust and locking myself in my room. I had moved to my comfort position, which wasn't very comforting right now. My back against the wall, my knees were up to my chest with my elbows leaning against them. My hands held my head as I attempted to steady my breaths.
I wasn't even emotional, just endless thoughts swirled in my head. So much I didn't have the capacity to tell myself to check my phone, or even move for that matter.
This was one of my biggest fears, and here it was, actually happening. "You can't trust anyone" my motto had once again weaseled its way in to the problem. The reason I kept that motto was that it was always ended up being right.
I had eventually calmed down enough to doze off for a couple minutes, but soon caught myself. It's not like I didn't want to fall asleep; I was just afraid to. I had struggled with nightmares since I was a kid, but over the years they got worse. Especially after a hard day, which is when I would just refuse to fall asleep.
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Ollliieeeeee You see I would walk to your apartment But its night Wouldn't wanna get kidnapped again or something- Ok I need to stop Just text me if you need anything ok? Delivered 1:33
