Happily Ever...

Chapter Four

Harry's POV

Draco ran out of the room so fast I didn't have time to register what had just happened. I just did the one thing I've been dying to do for weeks since we shook hands and called a truce. I kissed him, and he ran away. My legs gave out from under me and I was suddenly on the floor.

"No, no, no, how could I be stupid? Why did I do that?" I said, trying to scold myself like Hermione would do. "Why would Draco Malfoy want to kiss me? Argh I'm so stupid"

For the first time since I arrived at Hogwarts I let my tears fall. At first they came slowly, then they came so fast that every time I wiped one away two more would fall. I buried my face in my hands, not even bothering to try and stop the tears. I wished Hermione were here, she would help me. She always helps me, but I don't want to burden her. I grab a fist full of my hair, pulling slightly. I try to keep myself grounded, to not let my thoughts wander. It's too late, they hit me like a freight train.

Why would Malfoy want to kiss me, I helped ruin his life. I split his family up with the war I helped start.

He should have slapped me. I deserved it.

Draco's probably out there telling everyone how gross I am. How I kissed him against his will.

I'm not exactly sure how long I sat there, how long I cried. But when I finally stopped and I wiped away the tears, breakfast was almost over. Not that I was hungry, I felt like if I ate, I might throw up. But Hermione and Ron will be worried about me, so I went down to the great hall anyway. I slumped down next to Ron, who gave me a pitiful glance.

"Sorry mate, even though she's my sister, girls can be tough sometimes." Ron said sympathetically.

Of course, I look like a mess, but so does Ginny. Everyone just thinks we had a rough break up. I quickly glanced over to the Slytherin table, but Draco wasn't there. Pansy and Blaise were staring at me though, so I quickly put my head down and pushed my fruit around my plate. I didn't really participate in any of my classes, but my teachers seemed to take pity on me, probably because I supposedly saved the world. I honestly wish they didn't, I wish they would yell at me to pay attention or assign me detention for incomplete work. Just something, anything, that made me feel normal. Because right now I feel like anything but.

The day seemed to move on around me, I didn't feel like eating lunch, so I just sat there while my friends talked. Draco didn't show up to any of his classes, every time the door opened, I would watch to see if it was him walking through. Each time I was hoping to catch a glimpse of him. After classes I excused myself from studying in the library and went back to my empty dorm room.

Draco's POV

He kissed me! He actually kissed me, and I just stood there like an idiot. When his lips met mine I wanted to return the kiss, but I was afraid. Afraid of what my mother would think, what my father would think. So instead I just stood there until he pulled away. Then he looked at me with those big emerald green eyes, and I ran. I ran out of the room and down all the stairs until I reached the Black Lake. Then I collapsed underneath a tree. Why did I run? I've wanted to kiss him for weeks. Why didn't I kiss back? My father would kill me. He hates Harry, he believes that Harry ruined all our lives. But that's not true my father ruined our lives. He was a coward who gave into the darkness. I was a coward who gave into my father. I was a coward who ran from the boy who kissed me. I was a coward.

That's when the tears fell, burning hot lines down my cheeks. I knew I missed breakfast, but there was no way I could walk into the Great Hall see Harry and not melt into his arms. I took my shoes off and stuck my feet into the cold water, hoping to wash away the guilt that lingered in my stomach. He broke up with Ginny so he could kiss me, he thought I felt the same way. He was right, I like him, I like him as more than a friend. I want to hold him close and kiss him all day. Then why did I run? He probably thinks I hate him. He probably hates me. What have I done? I buried my face in my hands, crying until I saw the sun had moved significantly. It was probably well after classes, I'm going to have to make up so much work.