Hiraeth (Reader x Spencer Reid)

#32

You woke up in a room, you looked around it was familiar, fuck of course it was. You were back in the room Carter kept you in. You looked around trying to figure out what time period this was. You tried to remember what was going to happen next. You started crying. Dumb bitch don't cry, you're giving them what they want.

 In walked Carter, you could see his mouth moving but you couldn't hear him. You looked around usually Jasper followed he was his right hand man most of the time. You had a black t shirt on with no bra and a pair of nude underwear, you were so cold. It was freezing in there. 

You felt him tug on your hair, Jasper still wasn't there. You kept wondering what the tactic of the day would be. Two men brought in a bathtub, you still couldn't hear a thing they were saying. You thought they were going to hold you underwater and suffocate you. The silence was terrifying. 

The brought in a girl she looked a lot like JJ, like very very similar. They pushed her underwater then your hearing came back. You could hear her screams and pleas for help, Carter and other spectators mostly laughed. You couldn't watch, they were drowning her. You screamed I'm sorry and looked into the other corner. One of Carter's minions came over and held your head forcing you to look at her. You tried closing your eyes but when you did you got yelled at by Carter. 

He came over untied you after the girl wasn't splashing or screaming anymore. He through you in on top of her and repeated the same thing with you. Your lungs being filled with water, the water was no warmer than 10 degrees it was awful. You thought to yourself play dead than they'll stop they did but then you passed out. Dissipating into the darkness you had become oh so familiar with. 

You woke up to see Spencer wrapped around you. You breathed deeply trying to catch your breath. You were thrown back into reality without any warning. He slept through it you looked at the clock 3am, so much for sleep. You slipped into the bathroom and ran your hands under burning hot water to confirm the reality. You fell to the bathroom floor trying to catch your breath. Once you caught it you sat up, you got ready for the day. 

You screwed business casual and only did comfortable casual you dressed in loose cotton sweats and a matching sweatshirt. You grabbed a tshirt and a pair of jeans to thrown on before Hotch would get there to avoid getting yelled at. Not that he would you were a superhero to most. 

You threw your hair up but did your makeup putting on waterproof mascara just in case. You grabbed your gun you looked like you just rolled out of bed. You set Spencers alarm for 7 to let him sleep a bit, and left him a note telling him you left early to get more paperwork done so you could take half the day off to go look at houses. You left at 3:30 avoiding the addictive coffee. 

You got in and went straight to visit the women. Most of them had already been rehomed while the rest were waiting. You walked around the cots talking to the ones who were awake. You even interviewed about 20 of them, who just complained about being there. You understood and tried to help. It was nice that mothers and children shared a file it was easier to place them. You met a few whos files you had already reviewed and asked them if what you approved would be ok. 

You even pulled a few files up to check and see if they were ok with it. You finished 20 and approved over 60. WOW, way to be productive y/n. You then helped make sure the awake ones had breakfast. They were all so kind and thankful. You felt bad some didn't know how to carry a conversation so it was tiring. You looked at the time and saw that it was 5. You set all the files you could in the tech analyst's desks even some of the more difficult ones on Yun's and Pen's you trusted them more. 

You walked to the office Hotch had been forcing you to go to so when a case did pop up you would be cleared to at least come with them. You knocked on the therapist's door.