Him |Zarry|

13.

Have you ever had a feeling where you don't know what's going on around you, you're just somehow doing things but you don't really feel involved? I've been feeling this lately, after that incident I've been trying to play cool and avoid crowds just low key in my mood.

Doing my assignments,tests everything on time just like how it was earlier. It is actually better I'm not getting distracted.
Well talking about distraction I still try to look at Him, maybe another eye contact or anything but after that canteen scene nothing had happened. Once I was looking at him subtly hoping he would look back but no he was on his own with his friends. It's been like he doesn't even know I exists, like my presence is totally worthless.

It just like he owns it, I by myself can't even pull an eye contact and He, anyways leave it I'm over it.
I've actually been trying to avoid contacting people just Niall and Lou or other people for study related purpose.

I was in library studying Finance, I'm done sitting under the tree and drawing shxt, now I'm actually paying attention to Finance, in the class too. I had my ear phones on and solving the problems.
Suddenly I hear a scrapping sound of chair, I looked up and it was Him. My heart skipped a beat for a second, is it really him? He could sit anywhere, no but here only! I smiled a little and looked down.
He sat like a king style, legs widely open and eyes on his book. He was wearing Raven black Tee and black jeans, some bands in his hands and that's it FUCK he's so HOT!
Fuck now I can't concentrate, I'm subtly looking at him but trying not to get caught, he was reading a book I don't know which, busted! Shxtt! I thought to look somewhere else, we already had our eye contact and once I see his eyes it's impossible for me to look somewhere else. I kept looking at him and my heart was beating faster.

He smiled at me more of like a smirk, damnn I blushed like anything I looked down not wanting him to see me like this. I was really glad that he smiled cause he literally cut the tension that was going on these days. I thought of doing something back maybe say Hi to him? Noo that'd be too lame!.
I wrote Hi in a piece of paper and slided towards lol. I was really getting anxious I looked up he was already staring at me.
For a second I forgot how to breathe.

He crushed that paper in his hand packed up everything and whispered
"Follow me" I'm not really sure he said that I just read his lips. I stumbled little bit while putting everything back in my bag and started following him.

He was pretty fast while walking didn't even wait for me. We reached parking lot, I was huffing little bit cause I had to run to catch him but I controlled it and didn't show to him.

"Literally writing on piece of paper, what an old school shit" He chuckled and threw it on the ground. I felt someone just pinched my heart. "I.. I was trying to.. " I fumbled. " Trying to what" He said sternly and did his eye brow thing.
"N.. Nothing" I looked down.

"You're such a loser" He smirked, lighted his cigarette and started smoking.
"Then why do you keep messinh with meh" I said. Did I just really said that!!
"Uh huh I see, standing up for yourself huh," He puffed again m, came closer and said "You remember right, what happened last time when you stood up for yourself " smoked on my face and smirked. I coughed pretty badly, I took deep breathes and got back myself.
"I did that ca.. Cause youh told me to take st.. stand for myself" I said.

He smirked again "oh so you'd do anything as I say" He again raised his eyebrows. My heart beat was getting faster where is he even going with this?
"Umm.. That's not what I.. I meant".
He threw his cigarette and crushed it on ground "Get in the car" He claimed.
I was confused what does he want this time?

I got into the passenger seat and he started driving. There was silence for a while, he was simply driving and I was clueless.
"For how long you're gonna be afraid of heights" He said that with a smug face on, duh it's not like I've fever for 10days & after that it's gone.  "I don't know... it's just a.. a phobia" I said while I was fiddling my fingers.
"Lol what next, you're scared of water too" He chuckled, is this all joke to him? He literally abandoned me on the roof top and doesn't give a flying fuck bout it.

"Yeah" I said in a low voice, he looked at me and raised his eyebrows.
"I feel ...like.... I... I might drown" Somehow I said while looking down and still playing with my fingers.
"Seriously!" He laughed, he was literally laughing  "God you're impossible" That's it, it's not funny to joke about my insecurities, it is just insulting to me! Why are you even doing this?

I looked at him "Harreh how could you leave me at the roof top even after knowing bout my fear,...  it's not funny to joke about my insecurities" I said it, fuck I said it, my heartbeat were getting faster, wondering what he'd reply.

He suddenly took a U-Turn, I thumped to my left side, ugh my shoulder it was hard and sudden, I wondered what just happened.
"Where are we going" I asked in a scared tone. He looked so serious 2mins before he was laughing and now all graved.
"No where, I'm just dropping you home".

Fuck what just happened, I again ruined it, noooo shit I'm so stupid! Why did I say that! I should have kept quiet. It's all my fault. I looked at him, he changed it to 5th gear and car was pretty fast. I was getting anxious, he suddenly stops the car, I looked out of the window, it was my house. I didn't wanna get out of it, I wanted it to be more.

"But wha.. What happened,...  I'm sorreh, if I hurt youh Harreh, I.. I shouldn't have said that, we... We can go to that place where you wanted earlier" I looked at him while saying, hoping he'd look back at me, but nope his hands were at steering wheel and eyes on the road and no reply from him.

"Just go Zayn" and he turned the ignition. I got out of the car, he fled in a moment. I went to my house, opened the door, saw the couch and passed on it.