Him |Zarry|

14.

Not again, I hate feeling like this, empty like many things has happened but the same time nothing happened. It's just so confusing, I just wanna ask him that what does he want from me, one day he's so good boosting my confidence, the next day breaking that confidence, next day teasing me exposing me to my fears and next day pretending nothing has happened and other time ignoring me like I don't even exist.

What was today, I just said how could he do that and he got mad by it then! what bout the things he has done and said it to me. That's it, enough thinking about him. I got up from my couch, stormed to my bedroom, took a shower, put my food in microwave, just getting chilled up.

But why I said sorry, I didn't do anything wrong, why I felt guilty when he left me at the roof top? Why am I sorry now when I just asked him bout one thing that i wanted to know?

But he finally cut that tension, tried making a conversation and I ruined it.
I mean he's somewhere right who's actually afraid of heights and water, swimming whatever.
He loves height and wanted to show me but got disappointed when he saw me like that, makes sense.

I'm the scared guy, I feel like I might even drown, what the fuck was that, I mean people swim and they don't drown.
Ugh obviously he found it funny cause for him it's normal and basically meeting someone who's afraid of everything, it must be so stupid.

I feel like an idiot now, fuck I'm so mad at me I ruined everything.
Okay now I gotta make it back. I should take the lead this time and try to mend everything.
Yes this time I'd do it.