Deserve (TheCampingRusher FF)

Chapter 18 ~ Airport Goodbyes

It was Brayden's last day here in LA. He was going back to Canada, but it's okay because I'm going to see him again in two weeks for Pax East. I woke up next to him. I nudged his face and he slowly began to wake up.

"It's 7:30, wake up," I said to him.

*BRADYEN'S POV*

When I heard Cecilia's voice I opened my eyes to see her smiling at me. I grabbed her by her waist and pulled her close to me. 

"I don't want to leave," I say.

"We'll see each other at Pax," she says. I sigh, knowing that I still won't be able to see her everyday, after Pax, we'll be separated again. I don't think my parents would be happy with me flying out to see some girl often. It makes me wonder if I should even keeping seeing her. I liked her a lot, but it might be best to keep us as friends. I could always make her happy as a friend. So, as I kept thinking, the worst words came out of my mouth.

"So like, what are we?" My entire body filled with regret, fearing her answer to the question.

If she wanted to be with me, it might not work out. But if she wanted to just be friends, I'd probably feel like shit.

She released herself from my grip and sat up.

*CECE'S POV*

"I-I-I-" I was stuttering. What exactly did I want out of this relationship? I liked him, there was no denying that, but he lives in Canada and we can't see each other all the time. I also think things are awkward between us. We talk online more than we do in real life. It's probably because when I look at him, all the confidence leaves my body. Then the worst words make its way out of my mouth.

"I think we're friends," I say. I avoid eye contact with him and try to process what I just said. Did I really just want to be friends? We could still talk, and there's no commitment. It really isn't that bad. But no fucking, which kind of sucks, but I could probably live. Yeah, okay that's what I'm going with.

*BRAYDEN'S POV*

FRIENDS?!?! What the hell, did she not like me back?

"Oh okay, then let's just be friends," I said trying not to sound hurt. I get up and begin to leave the room, "I'm going to get ready to head to the airport."

She nodded her head, she was staring at a blank wall. I probably should have figured she didn't feel the same way. When we texted, she would make a few dirty comments here and there, but in real life she barely talked to me. Was she disappointed? I groan as I'm changing to get ready to leave.

When I'm ready, Cece's waiting in her living room on her phone, waiting for me.

"Are you ready?" she asks.

"Uh yeah, let's go," and I grab my bag, and the two of us leave her apartment.

The drive to the airport was completely silent. I felt bad, but to be fair, she's the one that wanted to be just friends. I did consider being just friends, but I still like her, she doesn't like me. Did she even want to be friends? Or was that a polite way of her telling me that she doesn't even want to associate herself with me? Maybe we're just going to forget about each other. Fine by me if that's what she wanted.

We got to the airport and she walked with me to my gate. Again, it was still silent. 

We got to my gate and I was about to leave, I heard her speak.

"Goodbye Brayden," I heard her say. I turn around see her looking back at me.

"Goodbye Cecilia," I say and I can't help but the swoop her into a big hug. She hugs back, which makes me really happy.

"I'm going to miss you a lot," she whispers to me.

"I'm going to miss you too," I say back. Eventually, we pull apart from the hug and she gives me a sincere smile. Then when I see her eyes, I see that thing. That thing that makes me forget ever feeling upset. Her eyes were watery, they were shiny. They became that light brown color that I could get lost in. That look that she gave me made me want to stay with her, for as long as I could. It made me want to kiss her. It made me want to be with her, but it was time for me to go.

I began to go, but I turned back to see her waving to me. I waved and turned to face forward. I tilt my head forward, trying not to cry because my eyes were watery. That was our goodbye, but not our last because I will see her at Pax, and I can get what I deserved, the girl with that thing.