Jamanchu (ongoing)

ALWAYS

Roses are red; violets are blue.
When things fall apart,
love is the glue.
-nn-

"When I got famous, there are vicious rumors and misunderstandings about me. I was so upset about them. So, I asked some people why did they misunderstand me? And they said; people who know me would know that those rumors are not true. So, I stopped worrying about any of them."

Kim Go Eun
In 'Happy Together' 2016.

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Hilton Hotel, Busan.
10.30 am LMH's room.

LMH had to try hard to keep his mouth shut from swearing as he tried to endure the excruciating pain right under his stomach. He seemed to have trouble also to open his eyes. He grumbled in agony. As LMH attempted to bear the pain, the slightest touch of KGE's hand on his shoulder sent him a funny feeling. It was funny that he felt loved, and yet his heart ached at the same time. But, he was grateful for the accident; KGE didn't leave him because of it. That was enough for him to feel at ease, at least for the time being. 

LMH could sense her anxiety and sorry. She kneed beside him and worried about him. Well, that silly girl surely should have felt apologetic! She had to be responsible for the pain in his heart and also the pain under his belly.
Those two were crucial things for her future!
If she only had known what it means.
He joked on himself.

"Imino..."

KGE called him softly.
Her beautiful voice sounded distressed. 
LMH liked to answer her but failed to open his mouth to speak.
The pain was still tormenting him.
All he could do was mumbling.

"Hmmm..."
"Mianhae..."

LMH could detect KGE's guilt over the accident from her voice.
But did she happen to feel guilty for what she said to him? He wondered.
Would she ever feel guilty about letting go of him?
How could she even say that to him?
Did she not afraid of losing him?
How could she not trust him?
Didn't they love each other?
How could she let him go?
Was she out of her mind?
What was she thinking?
Did she really mean it?
Did they break up?
Really break up?
HOW?!

LMH sighed. He wanted to look into her eyes and scream those questions out loud at her. How could she quickly come to that horrifying decision? How could she not try to listen and hear him out? Did she ever trust him enough? When all he did was nothing but love her and that he had no heart to cheat on her. The LMH wouldn't ever let himself cheat on his girlfriend. 
LMH clenched his jaw tightly as he recalled KGE's words that stabbed him at heart.
She had to explain to him later!

However, her nearness had affected the colliding feelings inside his aching heart. The hurt and anger were all he felt at the very moment when on the other hand, all he wanted was for her to stay and love him. Honestly, he wanted to love her more after she accused him of some insane nonsense. How on earth could he feel that way? LMH was indeed in a total mess. 

LMH still closed his eyes when the pain got lessened a bit.
He felt his knees a little uncomfortable from holding his body a little too long. He tried to move his body in some new position to make his knees feel better. He needed some strong and effective panacea to kill the pain down there quickly. And as luck would have it, the thought of her kisses on his hurtful parts popup on his aching head. LMH cursed himself.

Yaaaah!!
Jinjihage?!
You filthy boy!
Stop that thought!
Watch your mind, LMH-sshi!

Although she caused him pain, he would always forgive her. So, he replied her softly, 

"Ok..."
"I didn't mean to..."
"I know..."

LMH grimaced as the remnant pain caused him a little headache. He bit his lip and slowly tried to open his eyes. The first thing he saw was her concerned eyes staring at him. Her face was so close to his face, and he could feel her breathe on his cheeks. She smelled so good. KGE seemed not to notice how she almost brushed her face against his. It must have been because she was worried about him too much. Or not? LMH wished she did it deliberately.