Jamanchu (ongoing)

FIRE

LMH Apartment
Dec 30, 2019
6am

KGE stood in front of LMH's door. She was a little unsure to come inside. She just sent him her text, apologized to him. She sighed.

She needed him to understand her.
She needed him to stand in her shoes. She guessed he needed more time to know her better.

And now she was here, standing in the cross road between the need to be with him and her fear of uncertainty.
Uncertainty of being with him.
Damn to all the bashing.
She had to decide, though.
Never let her self caught in between.
And she always knew what she wanted.
Always knew what best for her.
This is what she wanted.
She wanted him.
Now.

She held her breathe as she began to press the pass code.

1 7 2 1 7
Beep
The door was opened.

She was hesitating.
She shutted her eyes and tried to convince herself that it was going to be all okay.
He wouldn't reject her,
Would he?
She shivered.
She couldn't bear his rage last night.
His voice, his eyes, all cold.
She wondered what would happen now.

She carefully pushed the door to open and got herself inside the room. The light was dim inside, she tried to adjust her eyes then she closed the door.

She heard someone was coming.
Running.
She wasn't ready.
It was him.
He was already awake.
She stunned.

They stood there face to face without saying a word.

Silence

She clenched her hands.
The sight of him only made her anguish even real and clearer.
He was the man she was in love with,
But he was also the one who made the world judged her.
It broke her heart.
Everything happened too quick afterwards.
She couldn't bear the tears from running down her face.
She started to sob.
But he just stood there without a word. He didn't even move.
It made her worried.
Worry of his rejection.
She was so afraid.
Afraid of him.

"I.." She choked.

What should I say?
Why don't you say anything, Sanbaenim?
Are you still angry?
I need you to say something.
Please say something.
I'm broken.

"Baby..." he whispered.

She heard it.
Her heart leapt.
She pressed her palm to her heart, feeling the ache slowly vanishing.
She started to sob.

She was too relieved that she heard him calling her 'baby'.
He still loved her.
He loved her.
He probably loved her.
Then she broke down.

Her sobbing echoed in the room.
Then she said what she really wanted to say to him last night,

"Please love me."

*****

LMH was too astonished by KGE's presence in his apartment after what happened last night.
She was here.
In his apartment.
He stunned.

They stood there face to face without saying a word.

Silence

She started to sob.
He saw her lips trembling as her tears started to fall down her lovely face.
He choked.
He didn't know what to do.
He was too relieved that she came.
She came to him.
She was here.
With him.
He was too overwhelmed.
But he didn't move, he was befuddled.
And he was so afraid that she would refused him.
He wouldn't be able to handle it.
He couldn't.

"I.." She choked.

"Baby... " he unconsciously whispered calling her.

Her sobbing echoed in the room.
And she said,