Do you awake in the morning first with unopened eyes, faced with the growing dread that today is another day?
Do you also have voices in your head that scream deafening things directly to your neural pathways?
Do you sit in your car and scream with everything you have while wishing it could just go away?
Do you have to tell yourself to just hold on a little longer and maybe it will pass?
Do you remind yourself that you have done this before and you can do it again?
Or do you tell yourself that going around and around cannot happen any longer?
Do you write notes for all of your loved ones in case the day finally comes that your fingers grow weak and you let go?
Do you feel like a soulless being walking this rock?
Do you think of death in every waking minute?
Do you feel like you are screaming at everyone who you know and love that you are not okay?
Are you tired? Exhausted? Defeated?
How much longer will you hold on?
