When dancer Sophia falls in love with the bassist of the band she's working with she knew he had a dark side...
Through ups and down and everything in between she finds herself having to adapt to his lifestyle.
" But a shot in the dark, one step aw...
I ended up at some shitty bar / strip club with the guns boys. I drank to try forget my problems but it didn't work inside now i'm sat here cocaine still on my nose and a bottle of vodka in my hands. I didn't tell the guys what had me upset but they've been trying to make me feel better, and they have temporarily.
" you know i didn't take you as a girl who could drink like a man " steven laughed.
" you and me both steve " i smiled taking a big swig of vodka.
The music is loud and i'm surrounded by people but i've never felt more alone. Why can't i just have a normal life, funnily enough nothing in my like right now is normal. I'm dating a rockstar well...was... i'm sat doing blow in a strip club...that ain't normal. Slash sits down beside me looking at me in the eyes.
" what's the matter , i know you're upset " he seems concerned.
" honestly it's nothing to worry about " i fake smile. He throws his arm around my shoulder.
" Come on kid you can trust me pinky promise i won't tell anyone " i look up at him and grab his pinky.
" you better not slash or i- "
" You mother fucker !!! " suddenly slash is being ripped out of his seat. I cant comprehend what's happening it all goes so quick. I see Nikki punching Slash in the face and throwing him to the floor. I watch as everything around me freezes. I feel a hard grip on my arm as i'm pulled back into real time. Nikki is tugging me outside as I look back at Slash who's holding a bloody nose. I feel the cold air hit me and realise how hard Nikki is gripping my arm.
" let go of me you're hurting me " He lets go and i watch his hand print fade from my arm as i gently rub it.
" What the fuck was that ! and where the fuck did you go we were looking for you all night you had us worried sick " he's shouting i've never seen him shout
" yeah like you cared where i was " i laugh
" Of course I did ! i thought you got kidnapped or something and by the looks of it you did , I warned that bastard not to mess with what was mine "
" You do not own me Nikki... and for the record nothing happened between me and Slash he was being a good friend to me after what you put me through tonight " i start well up
" what ! me ! what the fuck did i do i didn't even see you after the show ! " he's yelling and passer bys must think we're crazy.
" I FUCKING SAW YOU HOLDING HANDS WITH VANITY NIKKI YOU SAID YOU WOULD END IT AND YOU CLEARLY DIDNT " i lose my shit i'm shouting and crying at the same time. As i say that Emi and Mick appear out of the bar. She runs over to me and wraps her arms around me and i sob into her chest.
" No Sophia it's not what you think i promise " I hear him faintly stutter.
" I think you've said enough " Emi stops him.
" I'm gonna take her back to our room for the night " Emi says to Mick and he nods knowing it's for the best.
" No wait please I promise it wasn't like that " I keep my head down and walk with Emi who's practically carrying the weight of my limp body down the street. I hear a loud crash knowing it's probably Nikki terrorising anything in his path. We walk a couple of blocks until i'm being sat on a cold bench. She sighs beside me as I just sit there staring into space with makeup streaming down my face.
" where did you go after the show " she asks. I sniffle wiping my nose.
" got caught up talking to doc after the show and on my way back to the dressing room there i saw them stood together hand in hand "
" Soph... i'm really sorry... I know how much you liked him. I had no idea that was going on and I don't think Mick knew he would've told me, I never even saw her around tonight " she rubs my shoulder. I stay silent.
" Cmon we'll get a cab your feet are probably killing you "
Nikki's pov
I watch as her and Emi walk down the street.
" FUCK " I kick a bin sending trash all over the footpath.
" Come on man let's go back inside " Mick puts his hand on my shoulder.
" I know i'm not perfect and that i probably am a shitty boyfriend but I never cheated on her and i most certainly did not do it with Vanity "
" then why did see you two hold- "
" she grabbed my hands !! Sophia obviously didn't see the part where i pulled away. I got off stage and went back to the dressing room and there she was just sat there. I tried to get her out nicely that's why we were in the hall together i was ushering her out of the building " I crouch down in stress, I should've known this would only cause trouble.
" I fully ended it with her aswell, I told her i met someone new but now that's fucked "
" look i'm not telling you this to offend you, but that girl is way too good for you. If you like her as much as you say you do don't do anything to ruin it "
I sigh standing up. I run my hands through my hair thinking of what to do.
" I'm gonna go back to the hotel and get some sleep i have a lot of thinking to do "
" Here's the keycard i'll see you soon "
I walk away from Mick and the bar. I know some guys who live around here might pay them a visit. My life is officially so shit. Trust me to fall for our backing singer before the tour even started. And trust me to fuck it up. I actually didn't even do anything this time, I could be out fucking groupies and having orgies but no, i'm currently walking around the streets at some ungodly hour by myself after making my girl cry. Fucking nice one.
I knock on the door and wait for it to open.
" Nikki? Hey man what's up "
" ugh do you mind if i come in "
" sure sure "
I know this guy they call Hawley , that's not his real name but it's just how he's known. I met him a while back, he knows a guy who knows a guy basically.
" What's up man haven't seen you in ages , what brings you here " he brings me into this dingy living room with loads of other junkies.
" i was just passing and thought i'd come say hi "
" ah i see , we'll make your self at home " I look around and take a seat on couch next to this girl with an eyebrow piercing she's so out of it she doesn't even notice me.
I take out my bag and spoon and needle that i kept hid in my boot. I need to get rid of this pain. The pain of driving anyone i've ever cared about away. I'm toxic and unloveable. I hate myself. I don't want to be here anymore. I hate that i've mastered the illusion of being so sure of myself. If only people knew the ghosts in my head. The grudges i carry on my back everywhere i go.
I flick the lighter watching my illuminated reflection in the spoon. Bubbling the substance on the spoon and quickly getting it into my veins. Take me away , take me away from all of this....
