shot in the dark // nikki sixx

part 84

You better hope and pray that you make it safe back to your own world - shakespeare sisters
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My breathing hitches and i can feel my chest rapidly rising up and down. I'm having a panic attack. I look at deckers door...no I can't take him with me i'm not in the right mind. I run down the stairs to where we keep our keys in the hall.

" shit " i say to myself, i forgot my car is still being repaired. I grab his keys and creep out the door needing to get as far away as possible.

I start the ignition and bolt down the drive. It's a warm summers night, LA busier than ever. I'm surrounded by thousands yet I feel so alone. The one person I trusted let me down.

I don't want to say I saw this coming because I really thought he changed...

God why do I keep running back to him, he's caused me such much pain yet has shown me so much love.

Am I not enough?

My mind races with assumptions, who was he talking to ? Who else knows that he's cheating on me and never told me !?

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Nikki's pov

" yeah but I told you I don't want her to find out just yet, things are good I don't wanna spoil it "

" I know Nikki but I think she'll be excited to know that you're actually making efforts on planning for the wedding, her main issue was she didn't wanna be pregnant, that's not an issue anymore " Emi replies.

So i've been doing some wedding planning behind Sophs back because I know she just didn't have the time being pregnant and all. I met up with a wedding planner and just went over some ideas for invitations, decor, food. I've actually been enjoying getting organised which is something I never thought i'd say.

I just want to be able to officially call her Mrs Sixx.

" Okay well I'm meeting the planner again tomorrow but i'll try slip in the topic of the wedding tonight and i'll judge from her reaction "

" you better nikki I can't wait to be a bridesmaid" she laughs down the receiver.

" Okay I better go thanks Em " with that I end the call.

I make my way into the hall and up the stairs. She's probably still getting Decker to settle. I creep open the door slightly looking in but she's not there. I look at Decker who looks so peaceful. I smile to myself as I shut out his door.

I then open our bedroom door expecting to see her in the bed. She's not.

I look in the en suite, not there either.

Where the hell is she ? I run downstairs whispering her name because I don't want to wake my newborn baby.

Kitchen ? No. Living Room ? No. Studio? No.

I look out the window noticing my car is gone ? I check for my keys but their gone too.

Why would she leaving at this time of night and not tell me !?

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Sophia's pov

I sit with my toes in the sand listening to the waves crash against the shore. I shiver from the cold.

I come here everytime I wanna clear my mind, everyone knows that too so i'm easy to find. I wonder has he noticed i'm gone yet.

I sit and reevaluate my whole life. Imagine if I was late to that audition how different my life would be. Can't tell if it would be better or worse.

Would I still be living in that dingy apartment with Emi?

Would I have a healthy stable relationship?

I guess I can't be mad about that, I knew what I was getting into when I fell for Nikki.

Apart of me thought that he would change....guess that's my fault too being so naive. But who was I kidding he's a rockstar it's his lifestyle and I came and ruined it wanting to settle.

This is all my fault.

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After spending some time away and noticing how fast the time went I decided to go home. I'll just sleep in the spare room.

I take a deep breath before opening the front door, closing it softly so no one hears me come in. I make my way to the kitchen to get a drink of water.

He's sat at the table with the phone in his hand. He looks up at me with puffy eyes and I look back at him matching his stare.

" Where the hell have you been ? " He whispers.

" Why do you care " I turn my back filling my glass with water. He makes his way over standing tall.

" what's that supposed to mean ? You had me worried sick and you knew I couldn't leave to find you cause in case you forgot we have a new born " he spits with anger.

" yeah well maybe you forgot we have a new born before you decided to mess around with other women " I yell the tears starting to form.

I watch his face drop to confusion.

" Are you insane !? I have not been cheating on you where the fuck would you get that from !? "

" I heard you on the phone tonight Nikki ! " I don't want her to know things are good " So just save it i'm going to bed " I say feeling deflated having no energy to argue. As I walk away he speaks again.

" If you had listened longer you would've heard me say that i'm meeting our wedding planner tomorrow... " he says lowly. I look back at him.

" I was speaking to Emi and wanted to keep it a surprise that i've been planning the wedding during your pregnancy I didn't wanna put more pressure on you so I decided to take care of it " he looks so sad.

" Nikki I - "

" No forget about it, you still don't trust me after all of this time and whenever anything gets difficult for you , you run away , you're a coward " With that he leaves upstairs leaving me alone in the dark kitchen.

What have I done.

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