Okay, so today's valentines day so happy valentines day! I don't have a valentine this year, but who needs boys when you've got Netflix and pizza?😏 Anyway, I was going to do a special valentines chapter but I can't because we are in the middle of a dramatic scene😐 Sorry guys, I will do one in the next few chapter or something?💗
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Love is a powerful thing. It can help you though almost anything. But, it can also tear you apart.
I felt like I was going crazy, even so that Luke's back now. In the past year, I've moved out, been cheated on, nearly died three times, found out that my mum wasn't really my mum and I've fallen stupidly in love. But did Luke love me though? That same question has wondering around my mind for the past three hours. That's why I'm lay here, beside Luke while he softly snores.
Luke has been apologising all night though, to the others for being gone. But I can understand, that is something Luke would do, forget to tell someone where he's going.
I quietly got out of bed to see who was awake in the house. It was currently 3am. Michael isn't here, he went to Nadias.
I reached Calum's door and knocked softly. "Cal?" I whispered. I gently pushed open the door to find him asleep, fuck. I didn't really want to go to Ashton. He would start asking about before. Well, I have no choice. I guess I could go back to sleep, but that's unlikely.
I walked over to Ashton's door. I took a deep breath. "Come in, Kayleigh." Ashton's said before I even knocked. "Hey." He said once I was inside his room. "Hey." I laughed.
I sat down on his bed, and turning to face him. "Ash-" I started but I got cut off by him hugging me tightly. "I'm so sorry about before." He whimpered. I was quite shocked on how quickly his mood had changed. "I thought-" He said, but then took a deep breath.
"I though I lost you."
What? "Lost me?" I asked. "Yes. I thought you were going insane, Kayleigh." He said slowly. "Ash, what's up?" I said quickly, becoming more worried about his tone. "I don't know." He mumbled.
"Luke being gone was bad. But if you were to go insane then I don't know what I'd do without you." He said, bursting into tears and hugging me tightly still. I was so shocked. I knew Ashton and I were close, but not this close!
"Ash, I'm going back to bed. But thank you. I love you more than anything in this world and you keep me going at times. You are one crazy son of a bitch, but I love you." I said softly while chuckling. I kissed his cheek and walked to the door, but stopped at the doorway.
"Now, get some sleep you." I winked at him, making him giggle. "Goodnight, Kay." He said, and with that I shut the door.
I slowly opened my door to find that Luke wasn't in bed, but I could hear him in the bathroom. I climbed into bed and pretended I was asleep. I felt him poke my side. "Kay!" He whispered. "I know you're awake." He smirked. Then I couldn't keep a straight face and I started to laugh. "You got me." I giggled
"I heard that conversation, that you and Ashton had. It was pretty deep." He mumbled, pulling me into his chest. "I know. But I was very worried about him." I told him.
He sat up, sitting cross legged and I did the same. He grabbed my forearms carefully and looked me straight in the eye. What is going on?
"Kayleigh." Luke said seriously. "Yes?" I said, my voice hoarse. "I want you to promise me something." He told me. "Hmm?" I said. "Do not, ever. Cut. Again. No matter what happens. I can't risk loosing you a fourth time." He told me tears brimming his eyes.
I was shocked for words, for the second time tonight.
I was confused as to why he brought the up now.
"O-okay." I stuttered. "I promise." I said, gaining some confidence. "Good." He smiled, placing a soft kiss to my forehead.
"And now I want you to promise me something!" I said to him. "And what's that, princess?" Luke said. "Never leave me again." I mumbled, feeling quite sad. The memories and flashbacks played in my mind.
"Hey." He said, putting his hands beside my head, lifting it up to look at him.
"I will never, ever. Leave you again. I can't express how sorry I am for all of this... drama. Chelsea, leaving, the bad things that always seem to happen. And I want you to know that I'm too hopelessly in love you with you now, more than I ever was. Your my light, my everything, my oxygen. I've never been through so much with a person before, and were still going strong. You know the day you came back was the greatest day of my life. Even if I was desperate to get you back. You have taught me to be... me. You've made me see that this world isn't just black and white. And that's why I can't wait to travel the world with you, when we go on tour." He said, tears streaming down his face.
Again, I was frozen to my place for the hundredth time tonight. "Luke!" I mumbled, basically crashing on top of him. He has such a way with words.
"I love you so much Luke, and I mean that. I lost my virginity to you, for gods sake! You are my lovey, and I love you." I chuckled, pulling him to lay down with me.
"That was funny." Luke said. "What was?" I chuckled. "Loosing our virginities." He said, smiling at me. "We were so awkward back then." He said. "Luke that wasn't even a year ago!" I laughed. "Whatever." He giggled.
"Goodnight, princess." Luke said, letting out a breath. "Goodnight, Lukey."
And I fell asleep, feeling okay, for once. I felt like I had no problems. I am happy.
