I didn't know what to do. I was alone again. Luke hated me. I felt like I was screaming, but nobody could hear me.
I can't handle this anymore. Ever since I moved here to Australia, my life has turned upside down.
I was thinking about getting my own place, in America. I know that sounds crazy but I wanted to experience the high life. But obviously I couldn't seen as though I'm stuck in this situation, with no one to turn to. Then it hit me.
I haven't seen my best friend is FIVE MONTHS! I decided to call Nadia, which she was surprised at but she eventually came round here.
Once we were in my room, I told her everything. Even about the cutting. By the end she was crying her eyes out.
"Come here!" She said, pulling me into a hug. "I just... don't know what to do from here! Luke hates me!" I said.
Luke's p.o.v
"Luke hates me!" She said. I was currently sat in my room, listening to their conversation. I can't believe myself for saying that to her! I just got her back again and now I've fucked everything up. "See you!" She said. Nadia must be leaving.
Someone knocked on my door. "Come in!" I said, hoping it was Kayleigh.
It was Nadia. "Listen, you need to let her know you don't hate her. She's blaming herself and your leaving her in the dark. So, I would get in there and apologise for everything." She said.
Before I could say anything, she was gone.
Well here goes nothing, I though to myself as I knocked on her room.
"Who is it?" She said. "The pizza guy.." I laughed. She laughed to, which was a first. "Come in Luke.." She said, her tone shaky now. I pushed open the door to find her sat on her bed.
"I'm so sorry, princess." I began. "I love you and I was just mad because we spent all those years helping you and then you did it again. I know it was my fault and I'm really sorry for that. You didn't have anyone and that was my fault. You're beautiful, princess. And don't let anyone else tell you otherwise. You are the only thing that keeps me from going insane in this world. Your smile just brightens up my day, and I want to let you know that I love you." I said, tearing up. For a boy, I cry to much.
"Oh Luke.." She breathed out, coming towards me.
"But I can't hurt you again.I don't deserve your chances. But I'm going to prove it..." I said, making her freeze.
"What?.." She whispered.
"I'm going to prove that I can be the best boyfriend I could be. Like I was back then." I said, grabbing her hands and intertwining them with my own.
"Fine. You do that and I'll be happy.." She said, giving me a warm smile.
"First, I wanted to say I told my management about you." I said to her. She played guitar and she could sing like an angel. "What did you say?.." She asked cautiously.
"Well, I told them it was your dream to be a singer and to play in front of big audiences." I began, making her gasp.
"Why?" She said. "Because I love you and plus, us boys are going on tour in five months..." I trailed off. Her expression faltered. "But, you're our opening act!" I shouted, hugging her.
(expect shock in this bit)
Kayleigh's p.o.v
Holy shit. I'm the opening act for five seconds of summer! I can't believe it. "Luke!!!" I screamed, hugging him tightly. "I love you so much!" I said, peppering his face with kisses. He laughed, playing with his lip ring. "The boys can't wait!" He said brightly, but it then faltered.
"Luke?" I asked him.
"What?" He snapped, catching me off guard.
"What is wrong with you?" I said, taken aback by his sudden change of mood.
"Do you really want to know? I'm becoming depressed Kayleigh. Every time I look at you it just reminds me of the day I came home and you knew. Your makeup down your face, your voice shaky and your hands trembling. And I made you do this... didn't i?" He said, holding my wrist, showing my scars.
I was unable to speak. Luke had always been like this, but not that bad! He always lost his temper quite quickly but I was so confused.
"But I though we were-" I began, only to get cut off by Luke. "What? Thought we were happy again? Well, were not because I can't even look at you without hurting. I just can't do this-" he said, breaking down into tears.
"Luke, look at me. You have been the bravest person ever. I told you I'm over it. I've slept with people when I'm drunk so I understand. But please, stop feeling guilty about the whole thing. It was my choice to... harm myself. And I'm sorry I did do that and I'm sorry I let you down..." My voice cracked.
I put my head down and went to leave, seen as though I didn't know what to say.
"Wait! Don't you dare walk out of that door again!" Luke said, pulling me back. "What do you expect me to say?! You were all nice to me and then you lashed out at me!" I exclaimed, throwing my hands in the air. "I don't think I want to go on this tour, if this is how we are going to spend it." I said. Luke's face want blank.
"What? Do you know how much effort and time that took?! Do you not care that I waited over 12 hours in a hot, stuffy waiting room for you?!" He shouted. "Well if your mood swings are going to come on tour with us, then I'm not!" I shouted back. "I can't help my mood swings, and you know that..." He said more calmly. "Well try a bit harder!" I said walking out the door and slamming it.
