May POV:
I had an early flight home so I was back by 6 am. When I get back to the crib I was too tired to even get angry but I was. It took a lot in me to not destroy this entire hidden apartment but I came in dropped my stuff and went to sleep on the couch.
Jah POV:
"So that's the results?"
"Yep."
"Holy shit."
May POV:
I woke up around 1 pm and I honestly was just tired from all the drinking and all fighting. The sadness was beginning to set in and I just wanted to cry. I had a poem performance tomorrow and I knew that I could use this for an 'off the top' piece. I needed an escape from this reality and perform would help me do just that. I was hungry but I didn't want to really eat, we had grapes and squared cheese in the fridge, I was eating those while drinking black label. I fell back asleep again.
Ski POV:
I was so nervous to talk to May. I didn't know how she would feel or how she would act. I hoped she would listen at least. We were at JFK getting ready to board the plane. I got the results of the paternity test with me and I knew that May would be mad but she deserves to know what the fuck was going on. I take a deep breath, put my headphones on, and we get on the plane.
May POV:
I woke up and I heard the door opening up. I got scared so I sat up but it was just Stoke, I laid right back down and took a mouth full of the alcohol, and then I put it up. He shook his head at me and then he walked to put his stuff in the room. What the fuck was he shaking his head for. He had an envelope in his hand and when he came back to the kitchen. We stared at each other for a minute and then I take a drink from the bottle again.
"You-"
"Shut the fuck up Stokeley. I honestly don't want to hear you speak but I need you to explain to me what the fuck, who the fuck, when the fuck, and how the fuck. After you explain all of that we will see where it goes from there yeah?"
"Ight"
"Great" we go to sit at the table across from one another and I was ready to just listen.
Ski POV:
I was nervous as hell and angry. I understand May has every right to be mad but she was drinking and the pain in her face was killing me I just really didn't want to have this conversation with her being drunk.
"Can you leave the drink for a minute while we talk?" I asked, she looked at me like I disrespected her but she took one last swig and then left the bottle on the kitchen counter. We sit at the table we would sometimes eat at and at first, I just looked at her. Then I began to talk. "I am just going to start from the beginning, when Shay was cheating on me I wanted to get her back. I wanted to make Shay feel the same way I did. So when we're in NYC with Denzel I met Alexis at a party. I thought she was bad ,we fucked, and exchanged numbers. Every time Shay would cheat I called Alexis and she just became a pon in this game Shay started. When I dropped Shay before I met you me and Alexis got serious for a while until Shay came back now by that time Alexis was saying she was pregnant but then she would say it wasn't mine. Then I met you, I haven't spoken to Alexis since she said was pregnant which was just over a year ago. Now when we get back to New York for Rolling Loud she caught me at the mall with her son and she said that he was two years old. I was like that's dope and she said that he might be mines. First, I was going to disrespect her but I just let her explain how I was the last person she was with before she got pregnant but I knew she was lying. I said I doubt this baby is mine but I will take the paternity test just to be sure because regardless of how I felt the timeline was too close."
"I... I can't believe you didn't tell me on facetime or anything like why didn't you tell me?"
"May you have to understand that I was going to tell you because I believe you need to know what I have going on. I never lied to you in the two years we've known each other until the interview. Now I will admit that she did say she would scream that I am a deadbeat on social media and everything and I didn't want that so she said I had to treat her like my girl"
"I don't know what type of movie bullshit you feeding me but Stokeley I am not about to play with you. Regardless of what you had going on, we made a promise to keep no secrets and you kept one. What if I didn't go to New York would you have even told me? Would you even tell me if the baby wasn't your and treat it as if it didn't happen? I... I can't believe you would put me in a place where I feel like I have been lied to and then she disrespected me on social media and you didn't even defend me. You have yet to speak up, I know you aren't the social media type but fucking defend the truth. I was there for you whether right or wrong, I have fought your ex for you, and I helped you get rid of that toxic bitch as a friend. This one time you should've done something you stayed quiet. You were quiet at the hotel and quiet on social media. You hurt me and that will never change. I just... I don't know" she said and she began to break down. The girl I was begging for in the beginning, I had her, and then I ruined it in a matter of a day.
"Well I got the results of the paternity test and I wanted you to see them," I said handing her the envelope. She opened it and read it and she closed it.
"Congratulations, you are not the father," she said with tears in her eyes she was still hurting.
"Well I know I fucked up and I am apologizing right here that I am so sorry that I lied to you and kept this secret that I should've told you. You deserve better and I understand if you are going to leave but I do want to let you know that you are like my rock and I would become lost without you." I said with a few tears leaving my eyes because watching someone I know to be so strong was in front of my face hard don crying and it was my fault. She wiped her tears from her face and she gets up from the table. I stayed seated and she hugged my head and kissed my forehead.
"I will be gone in the morning. When I am ready I will text you." My heart dropped and I held back tears as she walked to the room. I know we weren't together officially but I felt like my other half was leaving me and I had a feeling she would never come back.
