Social Anxiety | Jensoo

Chapter 32

Inkigayo. Famously known for groups performing their stages and winning awards. Fans come to see their favorite artist perform and slay the stage. A way to help artist promote their music.

It's been over a week since the girls had debuted and they've made news in a good way. Many people had enjoyed their music and loved the music video. It was only a week but many people were very interested in their group.

They were about to do their debut performance at Inkigayo. After waking up at 12:00 am in the morning to head there and practice it's safe to say all of them were really tired. They shot some of the shots for the show over there that morning but still had to perform later on.

So all of them took a big power nap except for Jennie. Jennie was so anxious about it and couldn't help but feel so much pressure. Thoughts just kept her awake for a while. She was fidgeting with her fingers and her leg was bouncing on the bed.

She was staring at the ceiling just thinking and thinking. There was a fair amount of hate comments that she was thinking about. She couldn't help but wrap her head around those thoughts. It was still early in their career but how much more hate can a person really get or better yet how much can a person really handle?

All of a sudden she hears a knock at her door. She opens it to find Jisoo at her door. She looked like she was up too.

"are you able to sleep?" Jisoo asked softly trying not to wake up the others. Jennie shook her head no and Jisoo came into the room.

"Do you mind if I lay here?" Jisoo asked.

"No go ahead," Jennie said. She could tell Jisoo was nervous and Jisoo is never really nervous. So this was new to her.

"Why couldn't you sleep unnie?" Jennie managed to ask to break the silence in the room.

"I'm just a bit worried I guess. How about you?" Jisoo asks back Jennie.

"I'm worried too. It's going to be a lot especially with all the media on my personal life." Jennie confessed. It felt somewhat therapeutic in a way to share some of the info.

"Yeah, they're not gonna any easy on you. But you know all of us are here for you. We got you back no matter what happens." Jisoo said to try and alleviate some of the anxiety she has.

"Thank you Unnie. It's just kinda hard to do all of this that's all. But I'll make Mi-young proud." Jennie said with teary eyes

They spoke for about another hour giggling and trying to calm themselves. They ended up sleeping in the same bed for the night.

...

"Alright, girls you're next. Fighting!" Managers announced to the girls in the green room.

"Alright, girls huddle up" Jisoo calls as she rounds the girls together.

"We got this alright. Let kill it out there." Jisoo says to raise their spirits.

"3- 2- 1- Woah" All of them chanted and off they went to perform

BLACKPINK! BLACKPINK! BLACKPINK!

The chants of the fans outside were motivating and the girls killed it. Lisa's amazing dancing, Jisoo's luring voice, Chaeyoung's honey-like voice, and Jennie's stage presence and charisma attracted many new fans. Just like that, they finished both of their performances, and thanks to all the fans who chanted them.

It was the end of the show and we're about to announce the winners for the week. They steadily look on the screen and see the numbers flash. Then...

"Congratulations BLACKPINK," The announcer says as confetti starts coming out of the cannons.

They were all in shock. Within a couple of weeks of debuting, they won their first award. It was unbelievable to be able to get an award so early in their idol life. They've seen artists who work so hard and takes years to get this award but they got it so quick. But nonetheless, they were very grateful for everything.

Jisoo took the mic and started to thank everyone from managers, YG entertainment themselves, makeup artists, fans, and her members. On the other hand, Lisa and Chaeyoung were already crying, and looking at them cry started to make Jennie tear up.

Once the show ended they had to perform on a live stage. Jennie could see all the dreams she had starting to come true with all the fans cheering them on. She was doing it, she was gonna make it. When it came to her part she couldn't help but feel happy. She started to cry mid rap and Jisoo came her way and gave her a hug telling her that everything is ok.

In Jennie's eyes, she was grateful for Jisoo's presence in her life. She was so caring and always on her side. Jennie wasn't the one to be clingy but when it came to her members she couldn't help but cling on. Especially Jisoo. She had warm feelings for her, maybe because she was a perfect human being, maybe its because she cared about her, or maybe she just being delusional. Whatever it is the feeling was it's still there.

Maybe things won't be bad after all.