Social Anxiety | Jensoo

Chapter 1

Eyes. People. Fear.

"Chaeng I'm scared."

We were in front of the school. No, it's not the first week of school. More like the end first half of the semester. I'm in my last year of University and in the music major. There was a whole bunch of kids in the gate. 

My palms sweaty. My heart beat elevating. My foot tapping. 

I didn't want to move. I cling on to Chaeyoung. Probably the only person that gets me. She's my so-called therapist. Very patient and very reliable. 

"Don't worry I'm here. You have your pills right?"

I give her a slight nod. I have pills just in case I have a panic attack. They open the doors and everyone runs in trying to get to their class. It's a good thing I have The first 3 periods with Chaeyoung.

We walk to our class and my anxiety starts to build up. I try to avoid eye contact. My heartbeat gets faster. Eyes. Eyes looking at me.

Do I look bad? Did I do something wrong? Is my backpack open?

I try to control my self and walk faster. 

"Jen slow down I can't catch up."

"If you stop daydreaming about Lisa maybe you can catch up."

She starts to blush and walks quicker. I put on my hoodie to cover the faces of people. We finally reached the class and a whole auditorium full of people we looking at the door. 

My heart beats faster and faster. 

I take a seat in the back and hide from the class. Luckily the teacher doesn't care about the students and just talks about the subject. I slept through this class. It was math class. Way too easy for me. 

Next period; Music Class

I enter in my seat and open my book.

"Today class you will be creating a song in groups of 4. Here are the groups. Selugi, Irene, Joy, Yeri you're a group. Jimin, Jungkook, Taehyung, Suga you're a group. finally Jisoo, Jennie, Chaeyoung, and Lisa you're a group."

Chaeyoung's face lit up when she heard that Lisa would be in the group. I personally don't know Lisa but I have heard of Jisoo before. The beauty goddess of the university along with Irene. 

We get into our group Chaeyoung has a bright smile on. Then Lisa came to us. Then Jisoo. I don't know why but I start getting nervous. My anxiety is starting to take over. 

My vision started getting blurry. My heart rate accelerating. My palms sweating more than usual.

Then everything turned black