Social Anxiety | Jensoo

Chapter 36

"You"

"Huh?" That was all Jennie could manage to say. She wasn't hesitant on it or against it. It just caught her really of guard. She was at a loss for words and to be honest you can't blame her. All those years of hopelessly wanting a chance at love but either being rejected or too scared at the fact they're going to use you was finally given to her.

"Wait put your mask back up before dispatch would catch us," Jisoo warned as she realized a couple of people realizing who was in the building. Jennie following and putting on her mask as she too noticed some cameras and people in awe.

"Jisoo I- I don't know what to say," Jennie said as she tried to piece her thoughts together.

"Jennie it's ok you don't have to" Jisoo said before getting cut off.

"I like you too Jisoo. But what about the company?" Jennie confessed. She couldn't just let the chance go by her like that. She loved Jisoo more than she thinks.

"I know. It's risky, but if your willing to take this risk I'll be with you." Jisoo assured her as she too was scared of losing everything that they had. Their job, fans, reputation, everything.

"This is a lot Jisoo. I have to think, it's not an easy decision to make." Jennie said as she went back to her tea. She was faced with an ugly situation. Risking it all for Jisoo, or rejecting her and leaving a gap in their friendship.

They continued to drink their drinks with little to no conversation. Jennie was too busy in her thoughts and Jisoo was starting to heavily regret her decision. After they decided to go home else since the crowd was getting big and there was more commotion.

The car ride consists of no talking. And it honestly kinda broke Jisoo's heart. Jisoo felt selfish for doing that. She fucked up. That's all she could think of. To think they could even prosper. Sure they both knew now they had feelings for each other. But things were standing in the way of them. Maybe it just wasn't the right time.

They parked the car in the garage lot and headed back into the dorm and see Lisa and Chaeyoung in the living room both snuggled up together.

"Oh hey, unnies," Lisa said as they saw Jisoo and Jennie removing their shoes at the doorway.

"Hey guys, how's work?" Jennie asked as she how late it was already.

"It was ok just more meetings and schedules for this new Elle Korea collection." Chaeyoung listed as she put down her phone.

"How about you guys? Where did the both of you go?" Lisa asked.

"Oh to a coffee shop after dropping off Ji-Sung," Jennie explained. She saw in the corner of her eye Jisoo leaving her side.

"Guys I think I'm going to bed. My head is kinda hurting." Jisoo lied as she heads off to the bathroom to wash up.

Jennie watched Jisoo drag her body to the bathroom. She knew she was kinda hurt about the whole situation and it made her hurt too. Jisoo never really got hurt but somehow she got affect by this.

Jennie followed and headed off to her room and plopped herself onto the bed. She was going crazy with everything. Was she going to risk this for Jisoo? Would it be worth it?

At one point she wanted to keep her close but yet again what if the media saw them? Would they be fired? Would the media cancel them?

She was scared.

She laid there for about an hour just thinking and thinking. She kept trying to find things that she would worry about yet it always landed on the name Jisoo.

Soon she heard the lights close and doors shut signaling that the younger girls have gone to bed. To clear her mind she took a shower. The hot steam of the running water filled up the bathroom. As she closed her eyes lathering the shampoo in her hair she got memories of Jisoo. The days where they weren't confined into a contract. Where her insecurities were at is peak yet Jisoo helped her embrace them. The days of their youth that they had spent together growing up. All the sweet memories together made her smile and made her heart swell.

If risking it all meant that they would make even more memories together like this, it would be possibly be worth it.

Just being with her made her forget all their worries. Talking with her felt the best and she would always listen even if she was drunk and sad. She was that person. Your second half, your best friend, your lover. She couldn't help but continue to think of her. And she made the final decision.

After finishing the shower she got dressed in her pajamas and dried her hair off. Jennie left the bathroom and hesitated when she came across Jisoo's room. Apart wanted to come in and talk with her but at the same time, she could've been sleeping.

So slowly, she opened Jisoo's room and found Jisoo laying there wide awake and turned her head and made eye contact with Jennie.

"Can I come in?" Jennie peaked her head out toward the room.

"Yeah sure," Jisoo said as she fixed herself up. Jennie came in and laid herself in the bed laying next to Jisoo. She could tell Jisoo was not ok.

"What's on your mind?" Jennie inquired. She wanted to know from Jisoo. Communication is key.

"Just a lot," Jisoo replied avoiding eye contact.

"Well, what's a lot?" Jennie continues to ask trying to open her up.

"I just-" Jisoo began as she ran her hands in her hair.

"I don't know. I feel selfish and I put you in an awkward position. I'm just probably overthinking but I just feel really stupid for doing that to you. I'm sorry," Jisoo apologized as she finally made eye contact with her. Jennie could see a little glisten in her eyes.

"You're not stupid Jisoo," Jennie sighed as she cupped Jisoo hoping to ease a little bit of the pain.

"You don't need to apologize either. And I've been thinking about it." Jennie confessed.

"Ever since I had gotten pregnant with Ji-Sung I had vowed myself to never trust another person with my life the way he did. But seeing how you changed my life by just existing tells me something." Jennie shared. She wanted to tell Jisoo how she feels.

"The way you take care of Ji-Sung, me, and the girls is something that probably made me fall for you, or maybe it was the time I first came over to your place and you made me feel comfortable. Either way, you made all of the worries, the nervousness, the anxiety go away. You were always there to make sure I was ok even when I lie you can see right through me." Jennie continued to ramble as Jisoo listened making her feel a little better as she could tell that she wasn't the only one who had feelings for a while.

"What I'm trying to say is, I'm willing to do this." Jennie finally let out as she held Jisoo's hand.

"You are?" Jisoo was surprised. She thought it was going to be the end for them.

"Yes. It's just I haven't dated in so long and I'm just a bit nervous about everything that's all." Jennie chuckled.

Jisoo went in for a hug, hugging her probably the tightest she's ever had that Jennie was losing oxygen. She was overjoyed that the girl she wanted is hers. It's an overwhelming feeling but she loves it.

"Yeah, your gonna kill me before we even go out on dates." Jennie laughed as Jisoo wasn't letting go of the hug.

"Sorry, it's just I've been holding back on it for a while." Jisoo nervously said as she scratched the back of her head.

"Your not the only one who's been holding back" Jennie replied slowing inching closer to Jisoo's face.

Then it happened, they shared a kiss. It felt like little electric pulses on her skin. It made Jisoo melt inside finally sharing a kiss with someone you wanted for the longest. Jisoo went back in for another kiss both of them smiling. Jennie wrapping her arms around Jisoo's waist in the process.

It was happening. They are happening.