Social Anxiety | Jensoo

Chapter 27

Within a couple weeks all the girls are starting at trainee life. And it is hell. Everyday they have to practice from dancing to singing. They also have moved into a dorm together. This way the they can be able to form a better bond with each other. The school had prepared them to become idols since this was owned by the YG company themselves.

Now that there schedules are booked, any side jobs they had were put off. They resigned to focus on their trainee life. At least for Jennie she has a roof over her head and is being paid. And the best part is that she can go home to see her son on the weekends.

Now today the girls are off to do their schedules. Jennie starts with her classes for school still to be able to graduate. By 2:00 pm she starts her rap classes. The company saw that Jennie had the potential of a rapper so they prep her with rap classes. They also saw that her dancing wasn't the best compared to Lisa so they give her extra dance lessons.

By 9:00 pm Jennie finally is able to go home. But today she decided to stay in the practice room for a couple hours. She saw that the dancing instructor was giving some disappointing looks and the anxiety started to hit again. A pit in her stomach started and paranoid thought flooded in her head again. So Jennie practiced. For hours she practice her dancing to see where her weak points are and what she needs to improve on.

Jennie didn't realize until she started to feel really drowsy that it was already 2:00 am. She gets a ride from the group manager and heads back to the dorm. She slowly and carefully entered the dorm making sure she wasn't being a nuisance to the other girls.

"Yah Jennie." A voice called startling Jennie. She turns to see Jisoo on the dining table eating a cup of ramen. It was clear that she was staying up.

"Oh unnie, sorry I disturbed you." Jennie said giving a slight bow.

"No it's ok Jennie but I got worried about you. You didn't answer my calls or text earlier. I thought something bad had happened. So I stayed up to make sure you came home safe." Jisoo said with a worried look.

"Sorry unnie I guess I was just too caught up with practice earlier that I couldn't hear my phone ringing." Jennie said giving another bow. Her anxiety started to rise again. Another thought bursted into her mind.

Now look what you have done. You just annoy everyone.

She started to break out in a sweat and her heart beat was getting louder. But she remained unfazed by it and acted like it was nothing.

"It's ok. At least you're home now. Just give me a call if you are going to stay extra for practice. At least I will know and I could go with you too." Jisoo said giving Jennie a smile. That smile made the anxiety go away.

"Also are you ok? You were a bit tense earlier?" She asked taking in some noodles from the cup.

"Oh yeah I'm fine just had some thoughts that was all." Jennie said trying to act as normal as can be.

"Talk to me. I know it's not good when you start to tense up." Jisoo asked pulling out the chair beside her for Jennie to sit on.

"I'm ok unnie. It nothing too serious." Jennie said while taking a seat. Of course Jennie was lying but she didn't want to add more worry to Jisoo since she was already up all night waiting for her.

"You promised me many nights ago that you would talk to us if you every had any issues. I don't want you to spiral again." Jisoo claimed as Jennie took the seat next to her.

"I guess you're right unnie, I've been getting a little anxious from the company lately. I've never really like people criticizing me but I have to get used to it. I also don't want to be a bother to you or the girls." Jennie vented as she tried to avoid eye contact with Jisoo.

"Yeah I get it the company is very harsh but that's going to be part of our lives until we debut next year. But don't ever think that you are going to be a bother to me or the girls, you are family to us and we aren't going to let you get hurt. All of us look out for each other and you're no exception, ok?" Jisoo assured. It was true all of them do look out for each other in some way or form. Since Jisoo was the oldest of all of them she wanted make sure that she was going to be there for all of them.

"Ok, thanks Jisoo unnie I feel a bit better." Jennie said giving Jisoo a smile.

After a little more talking, they were both tired and it was already 3:00 am. Jennie took a shower and laid in bed. The little memory she just made with Jisoo kept going on and on in her head like if it were a part of a movie. She doesn't know why but it made her smile just thinking about that moment. Her eyes felt heavy and soon enough she fell asleep with a smile on her face.

A/N: Let me explain myself here, ever since quarantine happened I took into consideration that I have to focus on my school. It got harder and harder for me to post because of the situations that were going on. But school is over and summer has started. I've found plots for this book as well as my others and I plan to work on those soon. Thank you to everyone who waited for my works I'm sorry if I didn't meet your expectations on updating and I know I've said that 2 of my works are going to be completed by April but things took a turn so I will be focusing on updating the last chapters of those as well. Thank you for reading this and have a good day/night.