He left. Took me a day or two to set in and stop begging him to come back. Just like that after being together for 4 years, I went from his motivation for a better future to becoming his distraction.
For the all these months I kept thinking that he is just saying so and is doing all of this not only for his family but also for us. He is just thinking of me not suffering.
I made scenarios in my head where he had told his father about us and his father explaining him that no girl's parents will ever let you marry her if you aren't successful and that he should become successful and if even after that she comes back, marry her and many other scenarios.
It was also the time my anxiety started acting up and I got anxiety attacks. We were of course still talking but just not with the same enthusiasm then. He usually got irritated and agitated when I texted because I was all emotional. Whenever I had an anxiety attack he used to help me come out of that, but then one day he just got too frustrated and said, "It's all in your head" As if it were that easy.
Somewhere around July, his father was tested positive for COVID and he had symptoms. Hearing about his father gave me cold sweat and then hearing about him made my body stopped functioning for 15 minutes. I could not afford to lose him. If something happened to him I couldn't imagine my life, his family's life without being able to see him laugh or talk to him or make no contact whatsoever. I stepped back into my role of caring and understanding, without any drama.
He used to keep talking about breaking all the connections for a while and concentrating on his "plan" and said that around January or so he would do so. And I was okay with that.
17th August, my 15th Birthday, it was the most cheerful of all birthdays. Almost everyone I wanted was there. But not a single soul other than my aunt knew what was going inside me. The morning of that day, I found out that he had blocked me from everywhere he could. And from where he hadn't I made sure he had by trying to message him from there. It was that his plan had started early and there was also some problem at his house that I didn't know about.
But an incident happened before this block.
{Preferred Background Music: Tear myself apart- Tate McRae}
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Dusk Till Dawn
RomanceI am wide awake. At 3 am, and all I can think about is him, turned to his left, left cheek squished onto his pillow, eyes shut, not tight shut but gently shut. Him breathing quietly and a soft light from the window falling upon his face. Sleeping. A...
