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Chapter 11; Alayna

Chapter 11; Alayna

My body fell numb as my best friend fell to the floor, soon being joined by her mate. She whispered my name and I knew what I was going to do. I had to look away. I couldn’t witness the girl who was always so strong just break like that. She never gave up and here she was. I knew she wasn’t going to make it. There wasn’t any hope.

            My mind was asking for my mate for the first time since he had left; maybe for the first time ever. Quickly I disappeared up the stairs. I just couldn’t handle that. Who would sing with me in the car? Who would sleep over my house on Fridays when I was so distraught over school? Who would I call when I was getting married? Or having kids? Who would be their god mother? Who would I talk to at pack meetings?

            Shutting the door behind me I fell to the ground and leaned against my bed post. I always pictured her, my best friend there for me. Being my maid of honor and complaining about whatever stupid looking dress I made her wear because she hated looking formal. Or the first one to congratulate me and tell me I was bringing the spawn of Satan into the world. I pictured Kam being my kids god-mother and my kids calling her Auntie and her kids doing the same in return to me. Now who would be there? My sister and I didn’t have he great of a relationship anymore. Neither did me and Dylan or Sky, not since they found their mates. I would see Jay around due to Danny but that would just make it harder. Just knowing that Kam wouldn’t be with him. Just wondering what would happen between them.

            My vision grew blurry when I heard the front door slam shut. They were gone. That easily could have been the last time I saw my best friend. The last time I would speak to her and I passed it up. How could she do this?

            Standing, I picked The Sun Always Rises by Ernest Hemingway, off of my book shelf I used all my force to throw it against my wall. The sound of the book hitting the way didn’t satisfy me enough. I kept throwing my books. My favorite things, I kept throwing them until I collapsed upon myself in the middle of the room, sobbing. No one heard me. I silently thanked God for that. I didn’t need my family seeing me this way. Again I longed for Danny. But who wouldn’t want someone to love you and just tell you it would be okay.

            My lungs burned for air. My brain throbbed against my skull, begging for me to calm myself. My eyes threatened to pop out of their sockets as the tears continued flowing. My face grew sticky after a while. I’d been laying there for an hour or so. Then he came in and ran to my side.

            Sitting me up I threw my arms around his neck and continued sobbing. He rubbed my back and just held me tightly. It was like he knew not to speak; that even if he said the right words, it wouldn’t fix a thing. That much I would give him credit for. I felt like I needed to be as close to him as possible in that moment. My grip grew tighter and the tears stopped.

            My breath was still ragged but I was okay. “Does your head hurt?” He whispered into my ear. I nodded against his shoulder. I lifted my head to look at him when he picked me up bridal style. He placed me on my bed and put my comforter over me. “I’m gonna get you some aspirin and something to drink, okay?” Once again I nodded, not trust my voice to be steady.

            He left the room turning out the light leaving the only source of light as my bedroom window where the sun was streaming straight through the blinds and the light pink curtains, obviously plotting against me. A minute or so later I was sitting upright unable to stay lying there acting like nothing was wrong. I needed to talk to someone who wasn’t Kamren about it.

            Danny returned holding two white pills and a glass full of brown liquid what I really hoped wasn’t iced tea. “I thought you were lying down.” He frowned at me, taking a seat next to the bed.