I was viewing stories and I saw her. Her stories were telling me that she was sad that time. I chatted her, asked her, and comforted her.
"Cheer up! You deserve to be happy even in the worst time of your life. I'm willing to offer myself to be your pillow who you can lean on everytime you felt weak," I replied to her story. She just reacted it with heart and didn't replied to me.
I didn't know her. We didn't know each other. We're just strangers who became friends here in one of social media platforms because of random add.
The next day was one of my happiest days of my life. I saw her story and I replied to it again. At that time, she just didn't react but also replied to me.
"You're free to let out your problems. I'm here to listen to you," I offered her a comfort. I thought she would just stay silent again but I got surprised the time I opened our convo and saw a lot of messages from her.
I didn't know what to say because I'm just a good listener. I was not good at giving advices but I was happy when she appreciated me.
"Thank you for listening to me. You eased my feelings. Sorry for the inconvenience and thank you again. Your friends are lucky to have you," she said to me. I was touched because finally, someone appreciated me. I was always good at other people. I was always caring around them but I didn't know why they always left me as if they were annoyed by my personality.
"I will be happy if you'll also consider yourself as lucky. You can be my friends, girl. It'll be more appreciated," I replied to her. Her reply completed my one of happiest days.
I was just a positive person that's why I looked like I have no problems. But the truth was I have no friends. Nobody wants to be friends with me. Nobody wants to asked how am I doing even my own parents. Thus, I always kept my problems by myself. Every single day that passed by I always kept smiling and continued pretending that everything was fine.
I always tried my best to change who I am just to suit their preferences but at the end of the day I was the one who'd been always left out, always seeking for attention.
"Really? Awww, how sweet! Thank you beshy," she replied and I smiled because of that. That was it. That was the cue that she accepted me as her bestfriend.
Weeks passed by and we became closer to each other. I began to open up my problems to her and I was lucky because she always listen and never been tired of giving advices. I also did the same to her. We'd been the comfort of each other everytime we faced our problems.
We'd been happy together. She became my late night talks and early talks. I was so proud that she's my bestfriend. She was the best person of my life.
Then one day, everything has changed.
Sorry late reply. That words was always on your chats. I thought she were just busy that's why I didn't bother her. Until the day came that we only talked once a week.
I approached her again and asked if she was doing fine. I waited for hours before I got her reply.
"If I die, how many days or weeks would it take you to recover?" she asked me. I was stunned for a moment. Thoughts entered my mind. I was nervous and afraid to know what's your situation right now.
"Are you okay? Why did you ask that?" I asked with concern. I waited for her reply. Few more minutes passed and still, the three dots were just the one that I could see. She was still typing and I waited for her to send it. But I felt weak when you stopped and decided to just react on my questions. I tried to asked you again but it failed to send. She deactivated. And after days she deleted her account.
I considered her as my bestfriend and I knew that she also did the same. I was her bestfriend but she kept her biggest problem to me.
She never came back. She never chatted me again. She never left her address or anyone that I could contact. She cut the connection between the two of us.
She left me.
She left me in this world that full of pain and sadness.
Our conversations were jmhappy yet painful memories.
She was just a memory.
My one and only bestfriend left me.
I was left alone again.
