Rollercoaster LOVE

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"She was murdered as you know. I have loved her all these years even in death. I bitterly regret it." Snape tells me.

"I'm sorry for your loss. A love passing away must feel terrible." I say.

"It's because of Harry that I work both sides. Dumbeldore is the only one who knows outside of you and your father. I trust that you can keep these secrets. I want you to konw you will always have a person to talk to should you need." Snape offers.

"Thank you. Actually, if you could help me choose between Draco and George that'd be great." I joke with him.

"Who are you more afraid to lose?" He answers and leaves me to ponder the question.

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"Amber!" I get attacked by two bodies. It was Ginny and Hermione. They'd told me they were being kept in the dark about the meetings and had some  people stay and go.

Fred and George apparated into the room with a crack. I smiled. They had gotten their licenses and kept scaring everyone in the house. It was hilarious.

A few weeks had gone by slowly as we waited for news or anything to come our way. I hadn't heard from my parents and was worried. I did recieve a note from Draco telling he missed me and wished I'd come to visit but understood why I was hiding with my parents. I'd come to also learn that my dad was along Snape in playing both sides on the warfront. It was terrifying to think that one second they may be here and the next gone.

Speaking of Snape, his question haunted me. Who would I choose to save?

I wasn't sure. Can you ever be sure unless put in that situation? I looked at George playing with their latest product. Harry had given them the winnings from the Tournament so they were going to be able to open their own shop. They wanted to invent as many new products as possible.

"Why didn't you two write me? Why am I just now learning any of this?" Ihear a voice yell.

The twins and I go spy on the trio with their extendable ears but they open the door and trip over them. We run into our room and lock the door behind us.

I exchange a look with Fred, curiousity riddled in his eyes. We sit and wait until Molly calls us all down.

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We had eaten dinner and Harry was still angry with our group of friends for hiding from him while he was at the Dursleys. It was the safest place for him even if he didn't see it.

"Why can't I know? I've faced him three times already." Harry says.

We all sat silently and listened to the conversation between the adults and him.

"He's just a boy, Sirius." Molly says.

"He's my godson. He has a right to know what is going on just like the rest of us." Sirus retorted back.

"Fine, the rest of you go upstairs. NOW!" Mollly roared.

Everyone scattered rushing up the steps, as I felt a tug on my arm. Sirius looked up at me shaking his head gesturing to wait.

We sit around the table and Remus casts the Muffilato spell to keep out others from hearing.

"Amber, have you made a choice?" Sirius starts.

I really hadn't. I had to fight if my loveed ones were, though.

"Can we actually trust you?" Harry asks me, facing his body towards me.

"What do you mean?" Harry asks me.

"It's no secret, about your 'arranged' marriage. You'd spent time with him." Harry tells me.

I looked at him with pure anger. How dare he assume I'd just fall into the dark that easily? Is that really all the focus of this? My mind wandered off to George. Sweet, loving, kind, George.

"Who woud you save" Snape's voice rang in the back of my mind. I sighed.

"He's not his father." I say simply.

Draco was very concited and had exchanged words with my friends. He was very into the concept of blood purity. That didin't mean he was going to kill muggle borns did it?

I grab my head, feeling a sharp pain. I felt the tears threatening to pour out of me as I got up.

I turn to Sirus, "I'll discuss this with you later." I feel him pat my shoulder and turn to see him giving me a half smile. I walk out of the room and go up the stairs. I walk past the twins room, I pass the girls room, right passed the room that held Ron, and found the staircase. It led to an attic and I would be able to sit on the roof and think. Ineeded space from this.

Crookshanks joined me on my lap as I stared up at the evening sky. It was filled with stars and helped clear my mind. Times had gotten crazy so quickly all because of one evil man.

Draco.. Draco Malfoy. I didn't believe that he could be what they made him out to be. He truely cared for me. He's proven that he wouldn't want to hurt me. If he did choose the dark side I couldn't follow along. I knew that.

Snape was right when he said that I was like my father in the aspect of loyalty. I'd die for the friends I've made. I knew that. Ithink I'd made my choice before I knew it myself.