Before we start off, author lost her bolding text privileges ): Also this is the "writing my feelings" chapter I said I'd do in my community tab(?)
This chapter contains DreamNap!
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I loved him
I really did,
but all good things come to a end.
How could you not love him? He's just so incredibly perfect. His dirty-blonde hair. His green eyes. His dumb little freckles. The stupid little smile he'd make. God damn, I wish I were as perfect as him.
I felt insanely guilty
Why? Why though? Why would I feel guilty?
I broke up with the most perfect man.
We both loved each other, we really did, but it was hard to keep in contact with one-another. We'd barley be able to talk. He was always talking to that brunette. Brunettes name was George. I knew that they were "just friends" , but I'm such a jealous person. Well sort of jealous. I fear being left out of any and everything. I hate the feeling of being alone as well.
Dream helped me through some tough times. He knows that I'm insecure and that I deal with a lot of self doubt. He would always be there to reassure me. I loved him for that. He would also make me gifts and I'd make them back. I loved him for that. We stayed up for hours and hours talking with each other before someone fell asleep, which was me most of the time. I loved him for that.
I broke up with him
Why did I do that?
I feel so guilty thinking about it. I knew that he was also insecure and needed reinsurance as well I. Hell even when I gotten in a relationship with him his sister, Drista immediately threatened me. Later she warmed up to me telling me how much he'd cry at night. How much he'd let his bottled emotions go. We had only talked about this a few times, I tried giving him advice like writing everything down, which I think he followed, but I'm unsure.
When I broke up with him I told him that I were sorry multiple times. I told him to remember the good times we had together. I told him that he ment a lot to me. I thanked him for being there for me, and also being my longest relationship. He ment so much to me that my dumbass asked if we still could be friends. FRIENDS?! He said yes, but seemed upset.. Very upset.
I love him
I still do
Just not in the same way anymore.
His sister was right.
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