Changes - yoonmin/vmin, germ./eng.

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Taehyung felt like he couldn't breath anymore. His hands shook visibly and he couldn't concentrate on the movie one bit.

It was the movie his ex-boyfriend loved after all and he remembered the many times they watched it together.

The scenes where he laughed he used to remember with a smile broke now his heart and when another scene came he just couldn't take it anymore and ran out of the movie theater.

The cold breeze hit his face and he stopped in his tracks to breathe a few times.

"Taehyung?"

Taehyung's heart skipped a beat and he really didn't want to turn around but somehow he did it nevertheless.

He met eyes with his ex-boyfriend and it teared his old wounds open.

Flashbacks from the time where he found Hoseok fucking that guy shot through his mind and he felt cold tears flowing down his cheeks.

"W-what do you want?" He murmured with a broken voice and he stumbled back as Hoseok took a step towards him.

The fresh air now constricted his throat.

"I...I-I.. I'm sorry, Taehyung. I'm so so sorry." Hoseok whispered and began crying too which made Taehyung sick.

Why was he even crying?

"Don't... Just d-don't." 

His voice was barely audible and only the fresh wind took it to Hosoek's ears.

"P-please let me explain, Tae... G-give me just a m-minute." He pleaded and Taehyung saw how badly he needed to talk. He knew Hoseok would never beg like this when it's not something important to him. He knew him that good that he noticed the changing expression in his eyes showing him how broken he was.

And maybe he was even more broken than Taehyung was himself, but he didn't care.

Anger was making its way through his body and he glared at his ex-boyfriend.

"Why? Why would I give you this chance? There's nothing more to say. We had a fucking rough time because I was in the last phase of my study and instead of supporting and helping me you kept blaming me! Do you know how many times I had a headache because I had to learn till late at night since I needed to make time for you because I feared you'd leave otherwise? I even neglected my friends! And what for? To find you fucking that guy in our apartment, in our fucking bed! I hate you Hoseok. I wasn't the one who gave up on us. I tried my best to be there for you even though it was killing me inside but you... you just threw everything away just because we had a rough time for a few months! I hate you and you don't deserve a chance explaining anything." Taehyung's voice shook and he couldn't stop his tears from falling. He just wanted to disappear and crawl back into his bed forgetting the world and his life.

"Be happy with that fling of yours and leave me alone." With that he turned around and left into the night while Hoseok was frozen at his spot crying like back then when Taehyung left his life.

Now, he was sure that Taehyung would never come back to him.

And he knew it. He knew that he deserved it. He deserved every single word.

...

Taehyung just kept walking through the streets trying his best to stop crying.

But he was a mess. He was so damn hurt and his whole body ached. The air didn't reach his lungs, he felt his legs getting numb and he plopped down on a bench near a river.

He closed his eyes and searched for anything that could help him leaving that dark spot of his life.

And there was only one image appearing in his mind.