Bitch boys | NCT Mafia AU

Exhibitionist ;(CH41)

You stared into his eyes, hoping that he was just acting as a disguise to Bokyung, so that he'd help progress the mission. But he didn't budge, the persona wasn't leaving his face. He stood there, his hands caressing your cheeks, his smile unwavering and the sincerity of his eyes was blinding.

'Dont touch me' his fingers slipped away from you face with your force.

You had to find a way out, a way to help the others out. You couldn't be useless... That was your worst fear.

He sighed, his smile dropping slightly, 'I know you're saddened and upset by my actions of betraying Taeyong, Jungwoo, Doyoung, Changsub, all of those guys. But, Y/N, do they really weigh at any significant importance? They dont do you any good. They prove that time and time again, so, why bother? You are too special to be allowing yourself to charitably mix-in with... well... lowlifes'

You began to slowly pace around, back and forth, listening to whatever the fuck he had to say.

'Stop talking about them like they are lower than me! Why are you being like this Taehyung? W-why can't you.. why can't you just be honest?' You couldn't believe what he was saying. You fell for it again...

'My love... I am being quite honest right now-'

'Yeah, no shit Taehyung.'

'Then, I don't seem to see any issue-'

'There are so many issues! Are you that blind?!' you yelled.

You had spent your time piecing each puzzle piece together, trying to form answers, to see the bigger picture. However, every piece began to crumble down... Fall apart, nothing made sense anymore. Everything's a lie.

'The only issue I see is your worthless attachment those guys... attachments to fabricated relationship that you've made to comfort yourself. But, you dont need to fake anything anymore... You can be yourself with me-'

You scoffed, looking at him with pure disbelief.

'Yes! I'll just go right ahead and be with the man who lied straight to my face, faked himself out to be nice guy, is working with my abusive mother and ruined a plan that wouldve made my life easier... A life that I could choose my options, choose what I fabricate, choose what I want to be..' you pierced straight into his eyes 'choose who I want to be with'

He opened his mouth to say something, but closed his mouth as he stared further into your eyes, his probing of your emotions through your eyes was enough for him to stop.

'I overstepped more that what I should have.' he looked disappointed, however his tone didn't really show whether it was in himself or with you.

You didn't say anything back. You were simply repulsed by him, convinced this wasn't the same boy you had met nearly 15 years ago. This man in front of you had be corrupted, however you couldn't blame him entirely... You killed your own mother, well, at least at the moment you did.
I mean... What did you expect? For Taehyung to be as perfect as he set himself out to be?

As Jungwoo ironically said: you can't trust anyone.

'Now... We must go, you must feel uncomfortable.. with all these strange people around you.' he spoke, his tone dismissing any ideas that he could've been one of those "strange people".

You hoped that it wouldn't be a bedroom or somewhere totally secluded.
You just wanted to get out of this place, but that physically wouldn't be possible. This ship was literally off land, in the fucking air, escaping was not an option.

Your legs felt as if they were melting into the metal floor, that you had absolutely no way out.

You always had a way out. That's how you survived.