Bitch boys | NCT Mafia AU

Chaotic Blues; (CH36)

"That- What?" The whole explanation they had just enlightened you with did not diffuse through your head, you just didn't and couldn't understand.

You were left just sitting there... on a very confusing piece of information.

"We've explained this to you countless times, what doesn't fit in the puzzle to you girlie?" Jimin dropped another piece of liquor candy into his mouth, his body sat on the couch sideways, the back of his neck resting on one of the arm rests and his legs t
resting on the other arm rest.

"I don't know Jimin, maybe the fact that NCT now sees me as a threat?" You threw the piece of paper 'outlining' the explanation down to the floor.

Jimin coughed out a laugh, almost spitting out his candy, "poor you"

"Look, I understand that it's difficult for you to comprehend their sudden change of perspective on you, but... Look at the prospects of it all-"

"'Prospects'? Tae, she doesn't want to know about 'prospects', you are making things more fucked up" Jimin tilted his head towards Taehyung.

Taehyung sat there with a whole speech in his lap, tapping the speech cards on his thighs, "I've written an explanation for Y/N in various formats, analogies, dialects, physical motions-"

"Physical motions? Taehyung, am I some sort of elementary student to you?" You scoffed, "why can't you stop lying and stop telling me fairytales"

"No no no, you aren't an elementary student to me, you are quite smart... And witty and talented. How could I ever lie to someone like you? Someone so important.." Taehyung eyes pierced through your being with these big pure soft-hearted eyes.

A part of you relished this look he gave you, but at the same time, wanted to punch him. Everytime someone gave you that kind of 'loving' expression -- they just ended up betraying you.

You paused for a moment before getting up and turning around, not wanting to be consumed by Taehyung's gaze.

"Just give me a moment" You pretended not to hear what Taehyung had just said and let yourself have a second where you could just breath.

You couldn't walk fast due to your healing injuries, so you decided to lean onto the glass cabinet filled with various awards and art pieces, it was easy to go to since it was only a few steps away.

You then looked out at the window, or whatever the glass outlook walls were called. You noticed this ballet-like railing on the sides running along the curved in glass walls. The whole interior designing of the house looked so sculpted, made to fit Jimin's tastes and lifestyle perfectly.
Could you, like the designing of the home, mould yourself back into the life of a normal school student again? Or shape yourself into entering a life without NCT?

It would've happened anyways, sooner or later, you killing off certain members of SM and NCT and (presumably) going back to living with Yesung and going to school with Jisoo. However, the plot twisted again. Everything had to be so complicated, so unpredictable... So fucking chaotic. It's not like you didn't expect everything to go like this once you signed that contact with CUBE, but, why this?
You were supposed to feel thrills, excitement, fulfillment...
Yet you felt betrayal, overwhelmed and, confusingly sad. At least, a diluted version of these emotions. Quite frankly, you felt nothing.

You laid your head back onto the door of the glass cabinet and closed your eyes. They were probably wondering why you just suddenly left the conversation.

Perhaps, you weren't cut out for this.
At that moment you felt a sudden surge of respect for almost all mafia members you have ever met: from Yesung to Jinyoung to Jisoo... How did they survive years in this industry?