Save me ~ Changlix

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changbin pov-

we all stayed at the practice room for a couple more hours and then we went home. maybe jisung and felix didn't know i knew, but i definitely sensed that something was up between them. i saw jisung staring at felix whilst he was eating. i saw felix purposely trying to avoid jisung's gaze. i didn't know what it was but i knew there had to be something wrong. could something have happened when me and chan went to get food? if that so, what was it?

i was pulled out of my thoughts when i felt someone shaking my arm. i looked to my left and saw felix looking at me in concern. i smiled at him and he only looked even more confused.

"are you ok?" he asked me.

"i'm fine lix"

"good. we're home by the way."

i looked out of the window, and sure enough, we were parked outside of my house. i unbuckled my seat belt and got out of the car, thanking chan for the ride. i entered the house with felix behind me, until i heard the footsteps stop. i turned around and saw felix sat on the floor, holding his leg. i ran back to him and crouched in front of him.

"what's wrong lix? does your leg hurt again?" i asked. he nodded his head with teary eyes as he looked at me. i sighed and turned around.

"what are you doing?" i heard felix ask with a little sniff.

"helping you. now get on my back"

"i can't. i'm too heavy"

i sighed before grabbing the younger's hands and wrapping them around my arms, forcing felix to get on my back. i heard him gasp in surprise but i just ignored it. i carried him inside, and taking him to his bedroom. i sat him on the end of his bed and took his shoes off, neatly placing them in his wardrobe.

"do you need anything?" i asked him. once i saw him shake his head, i walked towards the door but i stopped when felix called out for me. i turned around and he waved his hand, wanting me to go to him. i obeyed his wishes and stood in front of the bed, towering over him. he pouted and held out his arms.

"what?" i asked in confusion. felix just stared at me as he held his arms out.

"lix, you're going to have to tell me what you want because i don't understand." i said with a sigh but felix still didn't say anything. instead, he just pouted at me. damn, he's cute. no! stop it! i shook the thoughts out of my head but then felt a hand on my wrist. i fell onto felix's bed and before i could get up, felix wrapped his arms around my waist. i didn't know what to do at that point.

was i supposed to hug back? or would that be weird. i felt felix's grip get tighter and when i looked down at him, his head was on my chest as he hugged me.

"lix?" i said.

"yeah?"

"are you ok?"

"i'm fine, why?"

"you never gave me a hug before. are you sure everything's ok?"

"everything's fine binnie"

binnie. holy shit. my heart is doing gymnastics, i swear to god.

"o-o-o-ok" i stuttered.

i was stiff for a few minutes but i eventually relaxed. i had to admit, this was kind of cozy.

"hey lix?" i said and he looked up at me. "are you hungry?" 

felix pov-

there it was. the question i didn't want to hear. the truth is... when i ate earlier... i only threw it back up again. i didn't even feel ill... i made myself throw up. yes, i know that's wrong but i couldn't help it. it's a habit.

i looked up at changbin who gave me an expectant face but i just shook my head.

"are you sure? you didn't eat much earlier." changbin said.

"i'm sure binnie" i replied. honestly, i don't know why i call changbin 'binnie' but it just felt... right. as if we had been friends for years.

"i'm going to make some food anyway. come down in 20 minutes, ok?" i quickly shook my head and tried to protest but changbin walked out of my bedroom anyway. i sighed and got up to go take a quick shower. i walked inot the bathroom and turned on the water. the water hit the tile floor making a rain-like sound. i took off my clothes and got under the water.

i sighed in relief as the warm water hit my body. i took a quick shower and looked at myself in the mirror. i checked the time on my phone and realized that it had already been 15 minutes so i quickly went to my room and changed into a hoodie and basketball shorts. i went downstairs and followed the smell of sphagetti to the kitchen.

i walked in and saw changbin stood over the stove. i sat down at the table and scrolled through instagram when changbin placed a plate of spaghetti and meatballs in front of me.

"eat up" he said. i smiled at him.

"thank you binnie" i replied, digging into the food. changbin sat in front of me and ate his food in silence. when we were in the middle of eating, jisoo came home. she gave me a quick hug before slumping into the chair next to me.

"are you ok jisoo?" i asked.

"i'm just tired sweetie, don't worry about me" she said.

"did you have a busy day?" changbin asked, to which jisoo nodded at. changbin then got some food for jisoo and placed it in front of her. she thanked him and we all went back to eating.

"chanyeol is going to be home late today so don't bother staying up and waiting for him changbin." jisoo stated. changbin muddled a quick "ok" before finishing his food. i also finished mine and excused myself to go back to my room.

i went straight to the bathroom and locked the door.

TW- mentions of eating disorder

i sat on the floor in front of the toilet and stuck 2 fingers into my mouth. i gagged a little but didn't throw up so i did it again. this time, i gagged and then threw up. i praised myself a little as i threw up all the food i had eaten, leaving me with an empty stomach. i wiped my mouth and brushed my teeth before going back to my bedroom.

end of TW

i went straight to sleep after that. my anxiety rose up as i remembered that i was supposed to be returning back to school tomorrow. i was also going to the hospital in 2 weeks time to get my cast taken off of my wrist, meaning that i had to go to school with it on. i knew i was going to get asked questions. i mean, the new guy at school turned up for 1 day and then didn't show up for a week, but when he does show up, he has a fractured wrist.

i fell asleep with worry filling my mind.

minho pov-

i pressed on jisung's contact and took a deep breath before pressing the call button. it rang a couple of times until a moody sounding jisung picked up. (normal is minho, italics is jisung)

"what do you want?"

"i wanted to apologize"

"too late for that"

"i didn't mean to shout at you, or to scare you"

"if you didn't mean it, you wouldn't have done it in the first place"

"ji, i'm sorry"

"get to the point"

"fine... can we talk tomorrow?"

"i guess so..."

"ok, thanks ji"

"yeah"

the call ended and i sighed loudly before putting my phone to the side. i really did feel bad about what happened with jisung. honestly... i really liked jisung. and not in the friend kind of way. to be honest, i wanted to be more than friends with jisung but i have always been too scared to admit it to him. for god sake! i'm such a baby!

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