Save me ~ Changlix

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Changbin pov-

We got home a about an hour after finding out the truth and I could already tell how bad Felix was affected by the news. But so was I. I had no clue that my own mother would kill the mom ofthe boy she had cared for these past months. I never knew she was capable of such thing.

We had picked up Jungwon from MinSung's house and so Felix was sat on the sofa, cuddlig with him. I decided to make us both a cup of coffee so we could chill out a little bit but I think that Felix is too zoned out to even realise what's going on around him. I placed 2 mugs of coffee on the coffee table in front of Felix and sat next to him.

"Yongbokie?" I said, trying to gain his attention, only to fail. He was too focused on the baby and probably his own thoughts too.

"Felix?" I now said but still didn't gain any attention. I sighed, thinkng about other ways I could make him snap out of his trance and ultimately decided to just place a gentle kiss on his lips. He looked at me, wide eyed, but then smiled. But his smile wasn't the same. His smile didn't reach his eyes, nor was their a sparke in them.

"Are you ok?" I asked and he nodded his head. I gave him the look of 'I don't believe you' and he let out a little sigh before shaking his head. I smiled a little at him before pulling his head towards me so he could lean on my shoulder, Jungwon still being hugged by him. I wrapped my arms around Felix's shoulder and I could feel him sinking into me.

We sat like that for a while until Jungwon started crying. It was probably because he was tired and so I took him out f Felix's arms and carried him upstairs, sitting myself down on the rocking chair with him. I rocked back and forth slowly as Jungwon's eyes began to close. He eventually fell asleep and so I placed him in his cradle. I looked down at him before speaking.

"I promise I will do anthing to make you and your daddy happy, I promise baby." I said before placing a little kiss on his forehead. I then left the room and went to mine and Felix's shared one, only to see Felix sat on the floor leaning onto the bed with his kness up to his chest and head hidden in them. I slowly walked over to him and wrapped him in a hug. He opened up a little bit and wrapped his arms back around me and I placed little kisses on his head.

"I'm so sorry Lix." I said, tearing up a little. Felix held me a little tighter and I released myself a little from the hug only to grab the bottom of his thighs and lift him up into the air, him still hugging me tight. I sat on the end of the bed with Felix straddling me slightly. His head was in my neck and I wrapped my arms around his waist. I could hear him slightly crying and that made me spill a few tears too. We sat like that for a few minutes before I grabbed his head and pulled it away from my neck so I could look at his face.       

He had tear stains all over his cheeks and his eyes were all red. I wiped away the tears with my thumbs but kept them there as I slightly caressed his face. He looked me right in my eyes and I smiled at him, causing him to let out a slight smile in return. He then grabbed my face and placed a kiss on my lips. It was quite a rough kiss but I think it was just because he was letting all of his emotions out. Anger, sadness, and most of all, confusion.

We kissed for a few more minutes before deciding to go to bed. It was quite early, around 10pm, but we both had an eventful day and we were both drained, mentally and physically. I was just hoping Jungwon would just sleep through the night.

an-

quite a short chapter but I really had no motivation to write much more. Just last week, I lost 2 of my family members, 1 was ill and the other got in a motorbike accident and died at the scene so it was a very very sad loss for both of them. Also, the girl I like told me last week that she liked me but just last night she told me that she still loved her ex and onbiosuly that upset me too so I'm not in a very good mindset but I thought I owed you readers an update. I love you all <3