Save me ~ Changlix

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felix pov-

the boys ended staying the night because i didn't want to be alone. i had decided that despite the pain, i would still go to school. i had already missed too much. plus, i had changbin with me. we had the same classes and then i get to see the rest of the gang at lunch so it wouldn't be too bad. we told chanyeol what happened too, and his reaction was scary. he started shouting, threatening that if he ever saw that guy, he was ging to kill him with his own hands. we got him to calm down though. eventually.

i couldn't walk very well so everytime i wanted to go somewhere, either changbin or jisung would follow behind me. i walked with a limp due to the sharp pain in my lower back and ass but then i thought of all of the times my dad beat me. the pain was worse now, but it's not like i hadn't been to school whilst in pain before.

i sighed, standing up from the sofa i had fallen asleep on, and walked around all of the sleeping bodies on the floor, carefully walking up the stairs. i walked into my room and grabbed some clothes before going into the bathroom, locking the door. i started the shower and let the water run as i undressed in front of the mirror. i watched myself as all of my scars came into view. i turned to the side and looked at my stomach.

"i look pregnant..." i said, quickly turning away from the mirror. i seriously needed to lose some weight. why can't i be like those men in the magazines with nice toned abs, tanned skin and a beautiful face? i quickly got under the water and immediately felt the sting of yesterdays events. my arms hurt and so did my legs. my legs shook as i walked closer to the water. i quickly washed my hair, followed by my body. when i got to the parts of my body that man touched, i scrubbed hard with the loofah to try and get the touch, that for some reason i still felt, off. i scrubbed to the point where my skin was red raw and i quickly put the loofah down.

i finished my shower and when i was done, i got changed into, yep you guessed it, a hoodie. it was a light grey one and i paired it with a pair of blue ripped jeans that hugged my thighs tightly. i put on some makeup to cover my freckles when i remembered what changbin said that day at the roof.

"you have beautiful freckles" i smiled remembering how he comforted me before wiping off the makeup, making my freckles visible once again. i put a little bit of concealer under my eyes to cover my eye bags before drying my hair with the hairdryer. once dried, i ran my hair through it a couple times and called it a day. to a good looking person, they might have looked good, but i still felt ugly. i shook away the thoughts and heard a voice shout through the house.

"felix?!" it was chan's voice. i left my bathroom, walking back downstairs to where the voice came from. when i got back to the living room, i was immediately met with a hug. it didn't last long and when pulled apart, i saw chan with a worried expression.

"felix, where were you? why didn't you wake one of us up to help you?" he said. i rolled my eyes before looking at the rest of the boys who were still half asleep. chan shouting probably woke them up.

"i'm not a baby chan. i can take care of myself." i said. it came off as quiet cold but chan nodded his head.

"you're right. i'm sorry. are you hungry though?" i smiled a little and nodded. and then it dawned on me.

"actually, i'm not hungry. i ate before you guys woke up." i lied. i saw chan look at me with skeptical eyes.

"what did you have?" he asked.

"toast." i said before walking past him and sitting on the sofa. i managed to end up sitting next to jeongin who immediately rested his head on my shoulder, yawning. i smiled and ruffled his hair and he smiled up at me. for some reason, i felt eyes burning into the back of my head and when i turned around, i saw chan staring at me with mad eyes. i was confused for a moment but when it clicked, i wiggled my eyebrows at chan who's face started turning a dark shade of pink.