𝗜𝗗𝗢𝗟 𝗟𝗜𝗙𝗘 #01 - 𝙎𝙏𝘼𝙔 𝙒𝙄𝙏𝙃 𝙈𝙀 (𝑳𝒆𝒆 𝑭𝒆𝒍𝒊𝒙) [EDITING]

05

Lauren's POV

Everything still feels like a dream or a story that you can read in every fan fiction story.

This is my first time crying for so long because of too much joy. My mind keeps on refusing to believe what just happened.

Everything is just coming my way really really fast!

Up until now there are still knots tangled inside my head. Where did it start? Why did this happen? And why me?

Whatever happening right now it's not bad, it's too good to be true. Too good to be believing that it's true.

Specially for someone like me.

Me, alone in South Korea. Me, inside the famous JYP building. Me, being a JYP trainee...for someone like me...how is this possible?

How come I got scouted by JYP because of my looks when people used to laugh at my face in my own country?

How come they're praising my talents when nobody believed in my talents way back then?

Everything is just so weird. So weird to the point that it scares me, it confuses me, I feel like crazy!

How come a nobody turned into something like this?

And how come a fan like me got noticed by my idols personally? In just a snap, we're in the same country, working under the same roof.

We even have pictures together now.

Wow. Just wow.

I may be sound like complaining but i'm not. This is not just a simple fan girl thing, or a goal.

This has to do with my life. Straykids is a big part of my life. People need to understand that fan girl-ing is not just screaming over handsome boys.

Fan girl-ing is a life saver too. Idols aren't just there to perform, they make people smile, laugh and they make us feel loved.

They teach self love. They save you from downfall, that's is why no one can ever come to me saying i'm just over reacting.

Because i'm not. This is really hard to believe because in the first place, this rarely happen in reality.

"You know you shouldn't be crying right? Do you even hear yourself right now?" Gido sat beside me and watch the sunset in front of us.

Haejin threw a loud sigh on my left side. "That's what I've been telling her." She replied and keeps patting my back.

"I feel like i'm a ticking bomb. I'm just so happy." I told them and tried to stop myself from crying.

We're now on the rooftop hanging out. This place became our hideout whenever we want to be away from our managers.

"I'm so overwhelmed." I wiped my tears and forced myself to stop crying. My voice sounds so weak right now because I've been sobbing really hard.

"You need to calm down. You have to accept that this is your reality now. While you're at it, enjoy. Don't ask why it's you. It's probably your destiny." Gido told me.

Oh yes. He's right! This is my life now, far from before.

I looked at my phone and saw my new wallpaper where I have picture with Chan and Changbin.

Look how it all change. From seeing them on the screen to meeting them in person. From listening to their song to talking to me directly.

No more imaginations.