𝗜𝗗𝗢𝗟 𝗟𝗜𝗙𝗘 #01 - 𝙎𝙏𝘼𝙔 𝙒𝙄𝙏𝙃 𝙈𝙀 (𝑳𝒆𝒆 𝑭𝒆𝒍𝒊𝒙) [EDITING]

06

Lauren's POV

It happened.

The survival show happened.

JYP introduced me as the challenger that will compete with the real trainees of the show. We will compete for the chance to debut.

And yes, I got finally introduced not only in South Korea, but internationally.

They think everything's okay for me. That I'm lucky, that my way to my dream is easy because finally, i'm competing or i'm on a show that fast.

They think it's easy for me because JYP and other praises me too much. I am thankful but honestly, I'm dead worried.

I'm afraid, i'm stressed, i'm overthinking.

Everything is just going too fast that I didn't even had a chance to prepare myself mentally, physically, and emotionally.

I don't know what to feel anymore. In just a snap, I gain popularity around the world.

It has good side but definitely has bad too. The amount of people expecting from something from me, the amount of people watching me, that's...that's just really pressuring.

They give me a lot of support and that is something I'm really thankful for but deep inside me I know, I'm not ready yet.

They are all warm but I still tremble. Not in coldness but in fear.

I already know that K-pop industry is not really an easy place to enter...but I didn't know it would be this hard.

I already performed in the past episode. I got to perform with other trainees and compete with others.

We performed Straykid's Maze of memories. I got Changbin, Seungmin, and Chan's parts.

It was the moment when Koreans started asking my names, they liked my performance, they support me, they want me to debut.

Of course, I felt really relieved. We all know that K-nets are so hard to please.

Since they like me, JYP told me that it won't be hard for me to promote in South Korea anymore.

Despite the pressure, there were a lot of things happened in the last episode that keeps me steady and motivated.

Chan is one of our judges.

Seeing him watching me in a very supportive and hyper way is keeping me focused to continue going forward.

I still clearly remember every of his reaction while he was watching me.

I saw him put his hand on the air. He stood up vibing on our performance with himself saying "Eyy! Eyy! Eyy!"

Chan was smiling the whole time while watching me.

He also said one thing that had me wide awake the whole night.

"I fall in love whenever you perform."

Damn. I know! I know that was just his way to compliment me but that still hits different in my point of view.

First of all before this, I am their freaking fan girl!

I know what he only meant was he fell in love in my performances, just that but still---- (○ﾟεﾟ○)

Not only that, when the filming finished, I met Han and Changbin in the hallway.

They both told me that they watched my performance and they really enjoyed it.

Jisung said that I was so cool while Changbin freaking pointed me and said...