𝗜𝗗𝗢𝗟 𝗟𝗜𝗙𝗘 #01 - 𝙎𝙏𝘼𝙔 𝙒𝙄𝙏𝙃 𝙈𝙀 (𝑳𝒆𝒆 𝑭𝒆𝒍𝒊𝒙) [EDITING]

07

Lauren's POV

Just like how fast JYP added me in that survival show it is also that fast how he pulled me out.

No, it's not about the articles about me that have been circulating the internet.

I'm glad it's not! Because if it is the reason, my journey of being an idol is over.

At first I was confused on why is he being unsure of his choices but they later explained everything to me.

It is because they have it all planned for me and my future.

JYP planned all this. He really wanted us to fight for the chance to debut but his main reason why he added me in the show was to introduce me internationally.

He wants me to gain fans and establish a fan base as soon as we can.

That's the main purpose of his idea.

But why tho?

They're planning to debut me alone months after my strict training.

That news struck me like a lightning.

I was confused as hell. I don't get the point of him rushing everything on me. Like why is he so invested?

It sounds funny but I really came with the conclusion that JYP might've developed feelings for me. I ain't joking! Everything was just suspicious that's why they had me thinking like that.

Bruh, hell no!

Until now, I'm still having goosebumps. They already released an statement about my future plans after people started looking for me in the show.

They cleared everything about it. We occasionally meet up for the meeting and they already assured me my debut.

Yes! They assured my freaking debut, meaning I'll be an idol no matter what!

All I need to do is train hard for the next six months.

Althought, I feel bad for the show...I think pulling me out is for the better. The relationship between the girls and me is fine now and I got to show my rapping and dancing skills.

No one knows about the exact date of my debut yet except me and the planning team.

And because of that, everything is just busy. My time is almost for training only.

Betty and my family, I barely exchange words with them anymore. After the training, when we go back to our dorm we don't have much time to move around or do something we want to do because we're so damn tired.

What we all want is let our body rest as long as it can for another training the next day.

That's the life cycle of a trainee.

Everyone knows that I'm moving too fast but I learned how to take things calmly. There's no turning back, I'm becoming an idol soon.

My dream is finally becoming true.

I may not have felt how they felt for training for so long but I think the desperation I have before is just as hard as what they've been through.

You know...the desperation of becoming someone you truly desire but you couldn't find any chance for yourself even if how much you try to work hard...it's hard to deal with it too.

Back then, I already accepted that this dream of mine will never gonna happen.

First, I don't live in Korea and obviously, I am not a Korean not even a half!

It's always the Thais, Chinese and Japanese who earn the chances.

Secondly, I'm poor! Financial takes a big responsibility to support this dream specially for foreigners.