𝐮𝐧𝐝𝐞𝐫𝐰𝐚𝐭𝐞𝐫 ; 𝖼𝗁𝖺𝗇𝗀𝗄𝗂 ✓

12 !

changkyun woke up. he slowly looked around, trying to figure out where he was. he looked to his right to see the dim shine of moonlight breaking in through the window. then he turned to his left and started remembering bit by bit what has happened. one significant thing seemed to stay unknown though. that until he saw kihyun pass by the rather big window next to the door to his room. the older had his eyes on the floor, seemingly buried deep in his thoughts, before he reached up his hand to wipe away apparent tears running down his cheeks and flipping back his hair in despair. and that exactly was the moment changkyun felt petals coming up his throat again. he ripped off the IV that connected his arm to one of the machines to his right and stood up, rushing to the bathroom and slamming the door shut afterwards.

changkyun went for the toilet and immediately fell onto his knees, hovering his head over it so that the thrown up petals wouldn't land all over the floor. then it started. his throat started itching slightly, as the petals made their way into his mouth. he threw up white petals, once again the shape of tulips' ones. and it kept going, his throat started hurting and his breathing took an irregular turn. his breaths got quicker and shallower as the flower petals started turning red from all the blood that was now also coming up. the pain got worse and the amount of petals wouldn't go back. changkyun started crying, it was too much. his aching chest started causing his breathing to completely lose rhythm and increased his suffering. whenever he breathed in, his throat burned from being so sore and that also made it difficult for him to breathe. it didn't take long until his vision started getting blurry, black dots started appearing wherever he looked and the world started growing afar. whatever he saw went into complete darkness and whatever sound he heard turned into shallow echos, as if he was underwater.

meanwhile kihyun headed back to the room. his eyes hurt from the exhaustion and all the crying earlier, but he would not leave changkyun's side until he was safe. he kept his gaze on the floor while entering the room, but after he closed the door and turned around, he froze in his position. the bed in the room was empty, changkyun wasn't there and all kihyun did see was a light shining through the bottom of the bathroom door. and he heard coughing, bad coughing coming from behind it.

"changkyun?" he carelessly dropped the cup of coffee he was holding and it fell to the floor, spilling all the hot liquid on the spot. then he came to realize what was happening, immediately running towards the bathroom after, opening the door.

"oh god changkyun!" he was shocked at the sight. changkyun sat there, white and bloody petals surrounding him and the younger himself leaning over the toilet. by now the coughing stopped. he fell back, his body hitting the bathtub with a heavy thud. with his back leaning against it, his head limply dropped, making it obvious that he hadn't had any strength left. he was pale, his cheeks red and wet from all the tears that had fallen and he was spacing out, blood dripping off of his chin. kihyun ran towards him, holding him as tightly as he could, realizing that changkyun was going to pass out any second now.

"help! help! doctor! i need help!" he screamed as loud as he could, hoping that someone would hear it.

"changkyun, hey! shh.. it's okay, you're okay. come on, stay with me!" he said as he watched the other's eyes becoming heavy to keep open. "kyun, please! i'm here, i'm right here. it's alright, baby. you'll be okay. we'll be okay." he kept talking, trying to keep him awake but he was aware that it wasn't working. it was like he was already gone.

"kyun, hey, stay with me. don't fall asleep baby, not now." kihyun was crying again, his tears blurring out his vision, trying to focus on the boy in his arms. changkyun had to realize that kihyun remembered and he had to understand that the older loved him again, because then it'd be over, but in this condition he wasn't aware of anything happening around him anymore. suddenly the younger started coughing again, throwing up more blood this time and a few petals as well. kihyun noticed his breaths shortening and his chest moving unregularly, begging for air to fill his lungs, but nothing seemed to reach.

"changkyun, you have to calm your breathing! please baby, come on, you can do this! i'm right here, i'm here. shh, it's okay." he kept crying. "it'll be okay kyun, i promise you. but you have to stay with me. we'll be alright. you will overcome this, we can do it together, okay? just stay with me baby. please, kyun you have to know that i love you! you have to understand that i feel the same way! i remember, changkyun. please baby, don't fall asleep. we'll be okay if you just listen to me." kihyun kept talking, reassuring the boy before he screamed for help again. he held him tightly. he wouldn't let him go, never again.
this was when he noticed that changkyun tried to say something too, but at this very moment the younger's vision blacked out completely, his eyes fell shut and his body sagged into the older's hold, his head limply falling onto kihyun's shoulder. and then it went silent.
the brown haired kept screaming for help until he finally heard the door of the room opening. he saw the doctor and two nurses rush in, one of them pulling him back so that the other two had full access to help changkyun.
now he was left sitting on the floor, not knowing what to do. changkyun was carried out by the one nurse and the doctor, so that they could get to him better and figure out a way to help him. the nurse that stayed with kihyun also didn't know what to say. she looked around the small bathroom, shocked by the sight. there was blood and flower petals, the toilet was filled with them and she watched kihyun look down on his hands, full of blood. he was shaking so badly.

"what happened here? hey, are you okay?" he heard her speak, but he couldn't bring himself to answer. kihyun was in shock and he was scared, so scared. yes, he had seen him throw up flowers in his dreams before, even the blood, but it was never this bad. he thought once changkyun woke up he could just talk to him and if he heard what kihyun had to say, he'd be okay. of course, he knew that it'd be tough and he knew that even if changkyun knew that he loved him back, this pain coming from years of suffering and wouldn't stop just like that. of course his body and changkyun himself needed time to process and to heal, but kihyun also knew that no matter what happened or how hard it was going to be, changkyun's condition would improve. they'd be okay, because they found each other again. but what just happened, he didn't know about that.
kihyun cried and he couldn't stop. if he now lost him, after all of this shit happening, after everything he went through to save him once before, the older would also lose himself.