Toxic love

Pain

*water drop sound and thunder follows*

Wy'Aut began to open his eyes after passing out.

Wy'Aut: I'm.. im still alive.. but how. *coughs*

Wy'Aut looked around and to his surprise the burning car that he was left in was no longer burning. He listened as he heard the thunder in the clouds rumble. A large downpour of rained had completely stop the fire.

As the rain began to slow down, Wy'Aut had finally managed to lose the rope from around him that had gotten tied. The rope had gottten burned and it freed him. As Wy'Aut unlocked the car door, he fell to the grown. His legs were injured and burned but he could still manage to hold his body up as he grabbed onto the car's door frame.

Wy'Aut: Though I should be dead right now, a heavy rain had come down and saved my life although there were no signs of rain before all of this had happened. God he saved me. He gave me a chance to live. *heavy coughing*

The heavy smoke that was trapped in the car rushed out with Wy'Aut. His breathing picked up but he was lucky to be alive. He had not burn not suffocate.

Wy'Aut: I can barely move right now but standing isn't that much of a problem. I got to stand up and catch myself before I can leave from here. *Coughs up blood*

My body reacted slowly every time I would take a step but sooner my walking had picked up. The bottom of my feet felt like I had walked on a rough and hard surface. It was because of the rain that followed that my feet wasn't badly burned. This is much more than just a miracle. All I could think about at the time was God.

*35 minutes later after finally arriving to Jacob's house*

*Knock knock*

*Jacob opens the door and to his surprise it's Wy'Aut badly injured but trying his best to stand up and walk inside*

Wy'Aut: Hey bro.. *collapse*

Jacob: Wy'Aut!!

Wy'Aut woke up the next day on Jacob's couch and patched up.

Jacob: Dude.. are you alright? What happened?

*Wy'Aut grabbed in back of his head where he had been gun butted from Jake*

Wy'Aut: It was Jake.. he attacked me and then tied me up in a car and put it on fire.. I tried to escape but I was weak.. luckily the rain had put down the fire.

Jacob: Dude we have to tell the police. If not what do you think he's going to do to you when he finds out that you're still alive? Jake already tried to kill you once. Which means he won't stop until he's sure you're dead.

Wy'Aut: That's thats I don't want the police in on this. I have to deal with Jake myself. I'm okay if you want to help but no police. I know if he sees me that he'll be in disbelief. At the moment I'm too weak to deal with him so let's just wait until I'm fully recovered or Atleast feeling much better.

Jake: Okay bro I hear you. I understand. Get some rest. We'll talk when you wake up.

Wy'Aut: Thanks man. For being a brother and always being there for me.

Jake: We've been bestfriends since grade school. We are practically inseparable. So that means that I'll always have your back,even after an argument.

*Jake balls his fist and gives Wy'Aut a fist bump*

Wy'Aut: Thanks. I'll get some sleep now.

*Couple hours passed and now it's finally morning*

*Wy'Aut opens his eyes and makes a loud yarn*

Wy'Aut: Shit my body doesn't feel any much better than it did last night. It's probably because I had an adrenaline rush with everything that had happened. Uhh..

Jacob: You got to relax before you hurt yourself more than you already are. Here I made us breakfast.

Wy'Aut: Yeah I know.. thanks.

Jacob: I want to tell you something before anything else can happen.

Wy'Aut: Is it something important?

Jacob: It depends. First I'm gonna tell you about what happened last night before you came here... Shannon was here and we had sex. We didn't get back together though. It was something that just happened. To tell you the truth I don't know where either of our feelings are. It's like she can walk into my life and leave whenever she wants and I'm okay with it. Our breakup wasn't the worse than I ever experienced in life but it did made me realize just how much I loved her. I know I sound like an idiot admitting to love her while just saying I don't know where our feelings are for one another. But it's like she's the same as I am. She hates when other people are around me and she always tries her best to get my attention even if I play like I don't notice her. It's like it's love there but we aren't moving forward to make something.

Wy'Aut: Hearing you talk like this just reminded me about how much love I had for Jenna. Though it had become one sided a long time ago, the way I feel about her never left. Even when I used Mariah's love to help me move on. But the truth is I did start to fall in love with Mariah also. And before my feelings for her could leave it's like she grabbed my heart and took it with her. I fell in love with the both of them and the way I put Mariah through all that pain while Jenna laughed at me just showed how much of a jerk I really am.

Jacob: I wouldn't call you a jerk.. maybe a jackass is more along the lines.

Wy'Aut: Be easy bro.

Jacob: It's the truth.

Wy'Aut: Anyway, what I needed to really do before even dating Mariah was making sure my feelings for Jenna were completely gone. Mariah is hurt in the hospital because of me.

Jacob: Can I be honest with you for a second? You may have hurt Mariah mentally but all them cuts, and bruises to her own body is something she put herself through. I'm not forgetting that her uncle raped her and she didn't know who to turn to but there are police that would have dealt with the matter and made sure that she would be okay. Mariah fell in love with you and knew she was hurting but before she told you everything she was going through she waited to hurt again. So both of you are to blame.

Wy'Aut: I understand..

Jacob: Right so stop hurting yourself and worrying about her. Mariah chose to cut herself. She chose to put the blame on you for it. She was hurting and made that decision herself. There are ways you deal with pain and what she didn't want the right choice.

Wy'Aut: It annoys me how correct you are. But the truth has always hurt. The thing is we got to learn to accept it. Our Pain is something we can't blame on someone if we put ourself in that situation. It's how we react to hurt that determines how strong or how weak we are.

Jacob: You're sounding like the valedictorian you are.

Wy'Aut: Thanks for reminding me bro. But still. What are we going to do about Jake.

Jake: Do you want to have revenge? Are you thinking that it's the right thing to do?

Wy'Aut: Honestly normally I let shit slide but he almost took away my life. I can't just turn the other cheek. I want to hurt him badly. I want to make him see his own blood. I want to leave him unconscious in a car that's burning alive for him to see how it feels. I want to stab him in his chest and watch him gasp for air as he slowly loses his breath. I want to push him inside the ocean with something keeping him down and watch him drown slowly as he sinks deeper and deeper. I want to slit his throat or wrist. I want to feel him to a wild animal.. But though as bad as I want him to hurt, everything I just said I wanted to do or cause happened to him wouldn't make me a better person. I don't think I can live with killing someone. I wouldn't be able to sleep again. No matter how much that person made me suffer. It's my heart. It was soft and fragile.

Jacob: I feel you. We will think of something but for now just eat your breakfast and then get some more rest. I'll think of something to help you deal with Jake.

Wy'Aut: Thanks..

It was obvious that if I saw Jake I would want to kill him on sight. I wouldn't be able to control my anger. All the torture, pain and misery he had caused me. Losing my ex girlfriend to him. Fighting him. Being bullied by him. Everything just kept playing back and back in my head. I needed to rest. I needed to stop thinking about everything. I needed to control myself..

End of chapter