Impossible decision // Jaebeom/Jungkook

10. Love, you're doing something seriously wrong

I had a good day with Seongna, she's now asleep in my bed and I'm checking my phone, laying next to her. I don't like how Jungkook just said 'no' without saying what he will be up to tomorrow, but then I've never cared before, so why would he tell me what he's up to now.

I want to message him, but to say what?

I miss you? Too clingy.

I want you? Too forward and even if that was motivating enough for him to come over, with Seongna here, there is no point.

[IN: Hey. Are you still awake?

[JK: In bed.

[IN: Alone?

[JK: Maybe?

Why did I ask? Now I don't know if he is or if he's just teasing me. I need to relax. What would Ina from two weeks ago say?

[IN: Tell her I say 'hi'... or him. I actually don't know your preferences.

[JK: Her.

Shit, so he's really with someone?

[IN: Sorry I didn't mean to disturb, we can talk another time.

[JK: 😂🤣

[JK: I meant I'm only into women so far. I'm alone.

God I'm so relieved.

[IN: Brat.

[IN: I know! I didn't call you brat when...

[JK: Do you want to video call?

[IN: Give me a sec.

I slide out of bed quietly and tiptoe into the living room, after closing my bedroom door behind. Snuggling on the sofa, under my blanket, I video call him. He answers in the darkness and turns his bedside table on, before sitting against his headboard. He looks sleepy, in his black t-shirt, and drags his fingers through his soft fluffy hair. I know he doesn't mean to look so effortlessly sexy, but damn. I want him.

"Hey you." His sweet smile comforts me.

"Hey." I really don't know what say now. "Why did you want to video call?" I ask.

"I was feeling sleepy and couldn't be bothered typing anymore."

"How come are you tired? It's Saturday night. I thought you'd be working or out clubbing or something."

"I had training really early and then I came to your place and well..." his crooked smile reminds me of our shower and I feel amazing, smiling back at him. "I helped a friend move apartment, so a lot of physical activity! And I have a competition all day tomorrow."

A competition! Of course! I breathe the anxiety out of my body  thinking I'm an idiot.

"You should really get some sleep. I feel bad keeping you awake."

"No. This is nice. I know I'm gonna sleep well if you're the last thing I see before I go to sleep." Now why would he say that if not to make me fall under his spell? I smile, snuggling in my blanket. "You look so comfy. I want to lie down with you under that blanket."

"My mum made it."

"Ina, can I talk to you seriously?"

"Sure."

"What happened?"

"What do you mean?"

"You use to treat me like a jock, putting barriers to my attempts at seducing you, making fun of me for my overzealous confidence. Are you okay?"

"Sorry."

"Don't be. I'm not complaining. I've just noticed a difference... since this morning in the shower." Damn it.  What do I say? "You haven't answered. Are you okay?"