After leaving his apartment, I feel so empty and I don't know if I can face Jaebeom seeing how much grief I feel. He'll ask me what's wrong and I'll have to explain which will probably hurt his feelings.
I go home and arrange to spend a couple of days with my sister before I call him.
"Hey beautiful." Argh this man treats me like a queen. I don't deserve him.
"Hey handsome."
"How are you? Are you coming to mine tonight?"
"Good. I just thought I should spend a bit of time with my sister and her family. I haven't seen her in forever and my nephews have been asking for me so..."
"Of course. Will you be back on Sunday? Do you want me to pick you up?"
"Yes I do. I'll probably take a late afternoon train, I'll text you the arrival time."
"I hope you have a good time and enjoy your family. You worked so hard for your exams. When do you get your results?"
"Don't remind me." I chuckle.
"Come on. I'm sure you aced your exams."
"Not sure about the last two. I was so worried about you."
"Oh yeah. Sorry." He does look sorry and makes me smile.
"I get my results the week after next."
"We'll need to go out and celebrate."
"We have to wait and see!" He looks at me as if I was unnecessarily cautious.
"Okay. Okay."
"I have to get ready babe. But I'll message you when I get there. I love you."
"I love you more."
"You probably do." His laugh is so loud but I am so happy to be the cause of it. "I'm joking. I don't think you can imagine how much I love you."
"I do." His eyes tell me he knows. Maybe he guessed what I meant. Maybe in my words, he heard me saying 'I love you so much, I chose you over another man I love too'.
We end the call and I start to pack before making my way to the train station.
On the train, I try not to think too much, but I do feel sad. I know it's normal and I am not trying to fight it. It will pass. I just need to make peace with it. I also think about Jaebeom, about what we have had to go through, or who, to be together, about how I always knew it was him, even when my feelings got sidetracked.
I arrive at my sister's and get attacked by my two nephews. They are so cute. The evening goes well and after putting them to bed, my brother in law disappears, knowing we have a lot of catch up to do.
Sitting at the kitchen table with Soju, we talk.
"I really thought you were gonna choose Jungkook."
"Really? Why?"
"When I left, you were very defensive about him. Jaebeom had lied about a girlfriend. So... the choice was simple."
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Impossible decision // Jaebeom/Jungkook
FanficYun Ina is a mature university student. She doesn't know yet that her love life is about to become very complicated. Seeing that she has never really experienced love, how will she cope when facing it... more than once. CHARACTER X READER This is a...
